So I did some counting, and I had one draft stored (which I just deleted) plus 49 total posts (Blogger does not include comments in the count)
So now I really do have 50 posts!
yay!
Positive!
oh, also I turned on anonymous comments so those few people who may have learned about my ramblings but don't have an account to leave a message can still leave messages!
so that's two positive things this post!
Double my promised rate!
Bethany Bunneh
B-2950
Thursday, July 31, 2008
50th post!
So according to blogger this is my 50th post, but i think that includes comments and stuff too.
Banishment is getting along. I've been really busy lately so i haven't been online much. My time is going by so slow I'm barely even getting the "three hour average" that they base release times on, at 84 hours i was like 9 weeks estimated or so, but I'm really behind that.
Haven't seen my operator on in a few days. I wonder what happens with that. I wonder if you can change operators while under banishment. I know she's been online (checked common groups we share) we are just on completely different schedules. It figures the one operator i found who was on the same schedule as myself and she wouldn't do it because it became a hassle for her. Everyone else was either European (at least 6 hour time difference) or they were just on a daytime schedule while I'm at work.
I'm just really frustrated that there was such a huge buildup of my second banishment then some shit happened and it's no where near as much fun as the 2 months build up should have made it.
Not like i can even tell anyone she was the only person i could talk to.
So bored with it this time, at least the first time it made it thrilling because i knew there was someone watching over me who took an active interest in my "rehabilitation" this time I'm just waiting around for nothing.
Sorry if i seem a little bitter about it.
My helmet did something odd earlier today, Someone TP'ed in on me (my fault for standing next to a building with a teleport pad in it) and after a few moments (i'm not sure how long I wasn't looking at the screen at the time so she could have been there for a few minutes before i noticed) i got a contact violation for approaching another bane. even though there were only two people in the sim, myself and this mystery visitor (i forgot her name)
Other then that It's been a lot of standing around.
on an unrelated note. God i miss dominate men. It dosen't even have to be a man, i just really miss people with a good dominate attititude. It's more then just barking out orders it's the whole persona. The few friends I had online that had "It" have all dissapeared. One in the armed forces (well He stopped talking to me long before that when I wouldn't be His girlfriend, that is unless he's horny then he'll talk to me for a little bit about stuff, get bored and go back to videogames, super dominate attitude, little boys mentality still), the other one just dropped off the face of the internet.
Everyone else i flirt/play with online just doesn't have "it". Nothing irritates me more then a guy asking if he can do something every step of the way(there is a difference between asking what a person would like, vs asking for permission to do that thing. For a dominate the first is ok, the second choice isn't.) "can I take this off." or they just completely ignore my half of the Rp (read as "my kinks".)
I've had so many RP partners that would read my profiles (which when i'm out to RP are pretty specific about what I like) and then try to take me out of bondage.
"Oh you're really into restraint? That's cool. Let me unlock all that stuff you took forever to describe to me, you must not want to wearing it since you took so much time writing all that out."
In SL it's not much better. My former Mistress who very much had "IT" in spades retired and I hardly ever talk to her anymore (which is really kind of sad for me). The few other friends I have that are dominate either have "It" but aren't into RP and will just lock stuff (which is fun too in a different way but not nearly as satisfying and requires me to put a lot more 'imagination' into it, so to speak in a fantasy 3d world)
The one friend I have who had both "IT" and could RP well, isn't interested in me and told me flat out one night she found me annoying, (it's a little more complicated then that, i'm paraphrasing the conversation) and even though I've gotten over what she said, and I get her intent even if the wording was a little poorly chosen, I doubt we'll ever get pass the "hey" stage of just saying 'Hi'
One last thing. Marine updated the RLV client again, to work off the newest version of SL but i'm a little scared to update, last thing i need is problems because my helmet doesn't recognize the new version and accuses me of cheating.
I didn't mean to turn this into a long whining post, I write stream of consciousness a lot and it sort of just flowed out. I promise the next time i post it will be positive.
-Bethany
Banishment is getting along. I've been really busy lately so i haven't been online much. My time is going by so slow I'm barely even getting the "three hour average" that they base release times on, at 84 hours i was like 9 weeks estimated or so, but I'm really behind that.
Haven't seen my operator on in a few days. I wonder what happens with that. I wonder if you can change operators while under banishment. I know she's been online (checked common groups we share) we are just on completely different schedules. It figures the one operator i found who was on the same schedule as myself and she wouldn't do it because it became a hassle for her. Everyone else was either European (at least 6 hour time difference) or they were just on a daytime schedule while I'm at work.
I'm just really frustrated that there was such a huge buildup of my second banishment then some shit happened and it's no where near as much fun as the 2 months build up should have made it.
Not like i can even tell anyone she was the only person i could talk to.
So bored with it this time, at least the first time it made it thrilling because i knew there was someone watching over me who took an active interest in my "rehabilitation" this time I'm just waiting around for nothing.
Sorry if i seem a little bitter about it.
My helmet did something odd earlier today, Someone TP'ed in on me (my fault for standing next to a building with a teleport pad in it) and after a few moments (i'm not sure how long I wasn't looking at the screen at the time so she could have been there for a few minutes before i noticed) i got a contact violation for approaching another bane. even though there were only two people in the sim, myself and this mystery visitor (i forgot her name)
Other then that It's been a lot of standing around.
on an unrelated note. God i miss dominate men. It dosen't even have to be a man, i just really miss people with a good dominate attititude. It's more then just barking out orders it's the whole persona. The few friends I had online that had "It" have all dissapeared. One in the armed forces (well He stopped talking to me long before that when I wouldn't be His girlfriend, that is unless he's horny then he'll talk to me for a little bit about stuff, get bored and go back to videogames, super dominate attitude, little boys mentality still), the other one just dropped off the face of the internet.
Everyone else i flirt/play with online just doesn't have "it". Nothing irritates me more then a guy asking if he can do something every step of the way(there is a difference between asking what a person would like, vs asking for permission to do that thing. For a dominate the first is ok, the second choice isn't.) "can I take this off." or they just completely ignore my half of the Rp (read as "my kinks".)
I've had so many RP partners that would read my profiles (which when i'm out to RP are pretty specific about what I like) and then try to take me out of bondage.
"Oh you're really into restraint? That's cool. Let me unlock all that stuff you took forever to describe to me, you must not want to wearing it since you took so much time writing all that out."
In SL it's not much better. My former Mistress who very much had "IT" in spades retired and I hardly ever talk to her anymore (which is really kind of sad for me). The few other friends I have that are dominate either have "It" but aren't into RP and will just lock stuff (which is fun too in a different way but not nearly as satisfying and requires me to put a lot more 'imagination' into it, so to speak in a fantasy 3d world)
The one friend I have who had both "IT" and could RP well, isn't interested in me and told me flat out one night she found me annoying, (it's a little more complicated then that, i'm paraphrasing the conversation) and even though I've gotten over what she said, and I get her intent even if the wording was a little poorly chosen, I doubt we'll ever get pass the "hey" stage of just saying 'Hi'
One last thing. Marine updated the RLV client again, to work off the newest version of SL but i'm a little scared to update, last thing i need is problems because my helmet doesn't recognize the new version and accuses me of cheating.
I didn't mean to turn this into a long whining post, I write stream of consciousness a lot and it sort of just flowed out. I promise the next time i post it will be positive.
-Bethany
Friday, July 25, 2008
Do i still have readers?
Most of the time this isn't something that I would worry about, though since I took a month off from writing I'm more then curious if I still have any readers left.
So just sound off if you want too, leave an anonymous message or something even if you don't have an account.
So just sound off if you want too, leave an anonymous message or something even if you don't have an account.
Daily BANE update pt 4
Ok,
So I had a nice little chat with Bluezy last night, got to beg for release and then denied. I tried to walk "home" back to Zhora after meeting with my operator, she took me a few sims over on the mainland to talk to me (her home.) I don't walk around in SL much, i came across two no script parcels of land which were hell to get across, and then got stuck behind a fence and some poorly designed land (who puts an angular ditch behind their fence?) and had to TP when I was one sim away.
Oh well.
Going better but still much more boring then the first time for various reasons.
b-2950
So I had a nice little chat with Bluezy last night, got to beg for release and then denied. I tried to walk "home" back to Zhora after meeting with my operator, she took me a few sims over on the mainland to talk to me (her home.) I don't walk around in SL much, i came across two no script parcels of land which were hell to get across, and then got stuck behind a fence and some poorly designed land (who puts an angular ditch behind their fence?) and had to TP when I was one sim away.
Oh well.
Going better but still much more boring then the first time for various reasons.
b-2950
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Trippled my projected post count!
so three posts in the month of July that's a lot better then i thought it would be.
So I'm most of the way through my second day of banishment, got my first update, +2hrs
I'm really thankful for Bluezy taking care of my banishment but i wish i would have waited and found someone who was on the same schedule as me. I haven't seen Bluezy online all day(we're on different halves of the world from each other) so that's not a huge surprise.
So far it's been alot of standing around in Zhora.
8 hours down some 78 more to go.
I find myself super curious about the control side of the custodian, i'm curious if it has all the same plug-ins and features as the rest of Marine's cuffs or if she put in a bare bones version for controlling the BANES.
oh well doubt i'll ever find out.
B-2950
So I'm most of the way through my second day of banishment, got my first update, +2hrs
I'm really thankful for Bluezy taking care of my banishment but i wish i would have waited and found someone who was on the same schedule as me. I haven't seen Bluezy online all day(we're on different halves of the world from each other) so that's not a huge surprise.
So far it's been alot of standing around in Zhora.
8 hours down some 78 more to go.
I find myself super curious about the control side of the custodian, i'm curious if it has all the same plug-ins and features as the rest of Marine's cuffs or if she put in a bare bones version for controlling the BANES.
oh well doubt i'll ever find out.
B-2950
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Banishment the second time around
:::Now keep in mind the following are my personal feelings and not in any way reflective of the experience for everyone during banishment:::
Ok, so I've been debating writing this for a bit now, I've had a lot of conflicting thoughts on the whole affair but I've settled on what I want to say and feel the need to get it off my chest.
So right after i got out of banishment i wanted to go right back in, well sort of. I wanted in the suit again but wanted to take a break to get some things done i had come up with while banished.
So my operator at the time said she would put me back in once I started begging to get back in. which is not something i normally do, i'm not big on begging for things. But it made her happy so I swallowed my pride and started asking for it. She said no...so some stuff happens and she begins to put me off, everytime i brought it up i was told "soon."
Soon turned into weeks, which turned into a month which turned into two.
At two months i finally hit my breaking point and yelled at her. A day later i cooled down and apologized, but out of the whole argument I decided to stop waiting, decided on a time for the sentence and added my name to the waiting list again.
This aparently lit a fire under my operators ass because she finally agreed to process me...followed later that night by finding out, due to a clerical error she wasn't on the security orb at the labs and had to get put back on before she could handle me.
I found out a few days latter that she contacted Marine and Marine basically brushed her off and asked her to contact one of the officers to take care of it.
Now nothing against Marine, i've meet her in passing a few times but don't really know her that well, but from what i've gathered from other people, she can be a bit curt sometimes. Which i can fully understand she makes one of the most popular brands of restraints in SL plus the other projects she runs, i'm sure she gets requests for various things alot.
Well my former operator took this the wrong way and told me she thought it was a hassle to have to track down an officer she didn't know and get added back onto the security list.
So it went from "Yes, soon." to "soon" to "no" to "yes" to "no" again.
I think that's a little unfair, she asked me to jump through hoops for two months just to get her to keep a promise to me, the first time she had to jump through a hoop for someone else, well then that was game over.
So needless to say I'm frustrated, and I begin to look for someone else to do it. The few people i know who I'd enjoy playing the processing with are either on different schedules then myself or are't working on new BANE's anymore.
In this time i'm contacted by a few operators but no one I'm interested in, mostly because they don't even ask anything about me, our schedules or anything at all. It's sort of the difference between people who want to make sure the person going through the experience is having as good a time as possible and want to take care of their charges, versus those operators who just want to go through the rp of putting someone in the suit.
That's how i see it at least.
So Ia lmost gave up right then, but I'm friends with one of the Engineers for the program (officers) who said she would put me in the suit if I wanted. So I called in the favor from her, which is fine and I'm thankful for it, but I'm regretting it a little. She was more then a little shakey on the whole process, having not banished someone for quite some time, and we almost had a big disaster when my helmet got locked to early and i almost couldn't put my skin on.
I don't think this will be as fun of a time because i'm going to be on my own for most of it. With my last operator I was thrilled because i knew someone was excited to be watching me, would sometimes check in on me via the remote monitoring in the collar and would sometimes offer encouragements via the communication system in the collar.
Versus a friend who is just going to hold onto my keys for me for several weeks.
and nothing against my current operator, but she let me walk all over her during the processing, anything I asked for would just OK.
So I had fun getting back in the suit, got myself a few violations last night saying bye to a friend, but now that I'm just sitting her in it I'm more then a little bored.
And i've had some offers for help once some events happen, but there is no promise of the events happening, they didn't last time. So i think i'm stuck by myself for the next 80 hours online.
B-2950
oh yeah and my number changed I'm now 2950
Ok, so I've been debating writing this for a bit now, I've had a lot of conflicting thoughts on the whole affair but I've settled on what I want to say and feel the need to get it off my chest.
So right after i got out of banishment i wanted to go right back in, well sort of. I wanted in the suit again but wanted to take a break to get some things done i had come up with while banished.
So my operator at the time said she would put me back in once I started begging to get back in. which is not something i normally do, i'm not big on begging for things. But it made her happy so I swallowed my pride and started asking for it. She said no...so some stuff happens and she begins to put me off, everytime i brought it up i was told "soon."
Soon turned into weeks, which turned into a month which turned into two.
At two months i finally hit my breaking point and yelled at her. A day later i cooled down and apologized, but out of the whole argument I decided to stop waiting, decided on a time for the sentence and added my name to the waiting list again.
This aparently lit a fire under my operators ass because she finally agreed to process me...followed later that night by finding out, due to a clerical error she wasn't on the security orb at the labs and had to get put back on before she could handle me.
I found out a few days latter that she contacted Marine and Marine basically brushed her off and asked her to contact one of the officers to take care of it.
Now nothing against Marine, i've meet her in passing a few times but don't really know her that well, but from what i've gathered from other people, she can be a bit curt sometimes. Which i can fully understand she makes one of the most popular brands of restraints in SL plus the other projects she runs, i'm sure she gets requests for various things alot.
Well my former operator took this the wrong way and told me she thought it was a hassle to have to track down an officer she didn't know and get added back onto the security list.
So it went from "Yes, soon." to "soon" to "no" to "yes" to "no" again.
I think that's a little unfair, she asked me to jump through hoops for two months just to get her to keep a promise to me, the first time she had to jump through a hoop for someone else, well then that was game over.
So needless to say I'm frustrated, and I begin to look for someone else to do it. The few people i know who I'd enjoy playing the processing with are either on different schedules then myself or are't working on new BANE's anymore.
In this time i'm contacted by a few operators but no one I'm interested in, mostly because they don't even ask anything about me, our schedules or anything at all. It's sort of the difference between people who want to make sure the person going through the experience is having as good a time as possible and want to take care of their charges, versus those operators who just want to go through the rp of putting someone in the suit.
That's how i see it at least.
So Ia lmost gave up right then, but I'm friends with one of the Engineers for the program (officers) who said she would put me in the suit if I wanted. So I called in the favor from her, which is fine and I'm thankful for it, but I'm regretting it a little. She was more then a little shakey on the whole process, having not banished someone for quite some time, and we almost had a big disaster when my helmet got locked to early and i almost couldn't put my skin on.
I don't think this will be as fun of a time because i'm going to be on my own for most of it. With my last operator I was thrilled because i knew someone was excited to be watching me, would sometimes check in on me via the remote monitoring in the collar and would sometimes offer encouragements via the communication system in the collar.
Versus a friend who is just going to hold onto my keys for me for several weeks.
and nothing against my current operator, but she let me walk all over her during the processing, anything I asked for would just OK.
So I had fun getting back in the suit, got myself a few violations last night saying bye to a friend, but now that I'm just sitting her in it I'm more then a little bored.
And i've had some offers for help once some events happen, but there is no promise of the events happening, they didn't last time. So i think i'm stuck by myself for the next 80 hours online.
B-2950
oh yeah and my number changed I'm now 2950
Update for July, more to come later!
Ok,
So my updates have sort of fallen off. There are several reasons for that, but I’m going to try my best to keep up at least one update a month no matter what.
I’ll probably make it to two updates today because I have this one which is general, I’ve got some product information to give out, and then I’ve got a post about being a BANE that I want to get off my chest.
First off…around the start of the month my friend Caitlyn told me about a skin sale at Sin Skins and gave me 200L for my rezday (which was July 4th, I was rezed on the fourth of July :-P ) I bought one new skin of light makeup to replace the freebie skin I had been using since I first came to SL some two years ago. I also bought a geisha style skin and a drow skin. I love skin sales, you get what is normally a 1000$L item for around 200-300$L Overall I’m pretty happy with the quality of the skins, of course new skins needed new hair so I went over to Calla and got myself a black hairstyle to wear as a geisha, (I already had a kimono, but that’s another story) as well as a white hair style to wear as a drow (and a dress too that was semi elfish) I don’t have access to my inventory to find the Landmark for the island and get a SURL for it so people can find the places I’m talking about but I plan on doing that in the future for reviews.
So besides that I also broke down and bought one of t hose KaS corsets that everyone has nowadays, but to tell the truth I only did it because it was on sale. I belong to a group in SL that used the corset (and the neck corset) as part of a uniform and had a deal worked out for a group vendor at a discounted price. Now I like the idea of the corset and it has a very realistic feature, having to wear the prim for a long time in order to tighten the corset, it’s not worth the full price for what it does. I feel the same about the neck corset both of which require drastic changes to my shape in order to fit properly and it’s just not worth the money to make all those changes when I can find clothes and just alter my shape for free that simulate the look.
Ok, so another post later about Banishment, I finally made it back into a helmet/suit, not with the same operator which I’m kind of disappointed about and I’ll get into why about that too.
Bethany Bunneh
Aka
B2950
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