Banishment the second time around

:::Now keep in mind the following are my personal feelings and not in any way reflective of the experience for everyone during banishment:::
Ok, so I've been debating writing this for a bit now, I've had a lot of conflicting thoughts on the whole affair but I've settled on what I want to say and feel the need to get it off my chest.
So right after i got out of banishment i wanted to go right back in, well sort of. I wanted in the suit again but wanted to take a break to get some things done i had come up with while banished.
So my operator at the time said she would put me back in once I started begging to get back in. which is not something i normally do, i'm not big on begging for things. But it made her happy so I swallowed my pride and started asking for it. She said no...so some stuff happens and she begins to put me off, everytime i brought it up i was told "soon."
Soon turned into weeks, which turned into a month which turned into two.
At two months i finally hit my breaking point and yelled at her. A day later i cooled down and apologized, but out of the whole argument I decided to stop waiting, decided on a time for the sentence and added my name to the waiting list again.
This aparently lit a fire under my operators ass because she finally agreed to process me...followed later that night by finding out, due to a clerical error she wasn't on the security orb at the labs and had to get put back on before she could handle me.
I found out a few days latter that she contacted Marine and Marine basically brushed her off and asked her to contact one of the officers to take care of it.
Now nothing against Marine, i've meet her in passing a few times but don't really know her that well, but from what i've gathered from other people, she can be a bit curt sometimes. Which i can fully understand she makes one of the most popular brands of restraints in SL plus the other projects she runs, i'm sure she gets requests for various things alot.
Well my former operator took this the wrong way and told me she thought it was a hassle to have to track down an officer she didn't know and get added back onto the security list.
So it went from "Yes, soon." to "soon" to "no" to "yes" to "no" again.
I think that's a little unfair, she asked me to jump through hoops for two months just to get her to keep a promise to me, the first time she had to jump through a hoop for someone else, well then that was game over.
So needless to say I'm frustrated, and I begin to look for someone else to do it. The few people i know who I'd enjoy playing the processing with are either on different schedules then myself or are't working on new BANE's anymore.
In this time i'm contacted by a few operators but no one I'm interested in, mostly because they don't even ask anything about me, our schedules or anything at all. It's sort of the difference between people who want to make sure the person going through the experience is having as good a time as possible and want to take care of their charges, versus those operators who just want to go through the rp of putting someone in the suit.
That's how i see it at least.
So Ia lmost gave up right then, but I'm friends with one of the Engineers for the program (officers) who said she would put me in the suit if I wanted. So I called in the favor from her, which is fine and I'm thankful for it, but I'm regretting it a little. She was more then a little shakey on the whole process, having not banished someone for quite some time, and we almost had a big disaster when my helmet got locked to early and i almost couldn't put my skin on.
I don't think this will be as fun of a time because i'm going to be on my own for most of it. With my last operator I was thrilled because i knew someone was excited to be watching me, would sometimes check in on me via the remote monitoring in the collar and would sometimes offer encouragements via the communication system in the collar.
Versus a friend who is just going to hold onto my keys for me for several weeks.
and nothing against my current operator, but she let me walk all over her during the processing, anything I asked for would just OK.
So I had fun getting back in the suit, got myself a few violations last night saying bye to a friend, but now that I'm just sitting her in it I'm more then a little bored.
And i've had some offers for help once some events happen, but there is no promise of the events happening, they didn't last time. So i think i'm stuck by myself for the next 80 hours online.
B-2950
oh yeah and my number changed I'm now 2950