Iso harness:
Okies, I got this item because on the little addvertisement for it, it listed a "Breathplay" feature which one of my many many "it buttons" and it claims to be RLV compatible but that's where a lot of my complaints about it came into play.
Likes:
I love the breathplay feature, it even has noseplugs. In order to keep from "passing out" the sub has to keep typing in random codes on /5 and they are really random codes, numbers and letters, so it can get tough, you've got about 20 seconds to do each.
I love the price too, at $450L it is cheaper then similar head harnesses.
Dislikes:
The RLV features are problematic at best. The blindfold hud doesn't self destruct and gets stuck on, i was required to re-log each time it got attached so that i could take it off.(or more importantly put other attachments on, because the hud considered itself locked)
Also it was a little hard to fit the plugs into my nose properly, i had to do quite a bit of editing to get the whole thing to look right.
Also the only way to get to the menu for the item is to have it locked on, which can be problematic for those people who just wear them for fashion.
Overall
I'll give it a 3 out of 5 bunneh review, mostly because of the problems with the RLV functionality, and the menu thing.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Lookit i posted!
omg it's been forever.
ok first thing first, un-banished. i struggled free 5 hours early. First person to struggle out of a BANE suit and as far as i know also the only one currently.
I've been out for about a week or so now. A lot of shopping has happened...well not a lot but enough to keep me busy.
I discovered a whole super heroine RP sim. wrote up a character for myself and now i've just got to decide on a costume.
in my head i see something short, form fitting, and barefoot. but i've been having one hell of a time finding socks that i want...i'm picturing that tape look that you see fighter people wearing.
the story i've picked is a medium range fighter who shoots blasts by punching and kicking in the air, and some other stuff too.
baring that i was thinking the gun bunneh look maybe and just be...gun bunneh...the other superhero name i was thinking of was "Shockwave"
So i'm so into the idea of going back into banishment with "harsh" settings this time...i.e. getting my operator tot urn up all the violations to thier most sensitive and restrictive levels. i'd like to do just a short sentence 24 hours, sort of finishing out what i had.
if i continued with the story though, as an "escapee" of the program i should do a full 96 hour sentence but i'm not sure i could get into that much time away again.
okies, I've also got a product review to do but i'm going to make another post for that so that it's easier to read/find.
ok first thing first, un-banished. i struggled free 5 hours early. First person to struggle out of a BANE suit and as far as i know also the only one currently.
I've been out for about a week or so now. A lot of shopping has happened...well not a lot but enough to keep me busy.
I discovered a whole super heroine RP sim. wrote up a character for myself and now i've just got to decide on a costume.
in my head i see something short, form fitting, and barefoot. but i've been having one hell of a time finding socks that i want...i'm picturing that tape look that you see fighter people wearing.
the story i've picked is a medium range fighter who shoots blasts by punching and kicking in the air, and some other stuff too.
baring that i was thinking the gun bunneh look maybe and just be...gun bunneh...the other superhero name i was thinking of was "Shockwave"
So i'm so into the idea of going back into banishment with "harsh" settings this time...i.e. getting my operator tot urn up all the violations to thier most sensitive and restrictive levels. i'd like to do just a short sentence 24 hours, sort of finishing out what i had.
if i continued with the story though, as an "escapee" of the program i should do a full 96 hour sentence but i'm not sure i could get into that much time away again.
okies, I've also got a product review to do but i'm going to make another post for that so that it's easier to read/find.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
some RP stuff, plus others
So after 70 hours of banishment i figured out something. I don't need an AO because i can still use gestures. which i discovered on accident the /cry gesture was active which was only an animation. which means i could use it but not get a violation. Also if you open up the gesture window (ctrl+G for those future banes who may read this) you can create new gestures from there.
in addition to the default animations included in the SL library it also let me pick out any animations that were in my animations folder for me to use to make gestures.
I now have the ability to.
sit (for 25 seconds, setting it longer got boring)
point
blow a kiss.
tell someone to kiss my ass
do a backflip
plead
cry
i call it a ghetto AO.
also i'm nearing my original sentence time. only added time left now.
maybe i'll pester my operator some and see if i can goad her into adding time.
So i'm not sure still what i want to do RP wise with the whole bane existence. One of the joys of being a bane is supposed to be finding your eduamon, but if i do that then i'd never want out of the suit, which could get boring quick.
As i mentioned earlier when I dom i tend to do stuff i'd want done to me, which is why i don't think i want to be come an operator after i get out, i think i'd be more sadistic then most people wanted because as odd as it sounds i enjoy it when people are mean to me.
Though the thought had crossed my mind of maybe going "good" for a little, becoming an operator and maybe even joining the SLBI (or at least becoming an informant) for a little while, of course with the plan of "going evil" again at some point from the inside. i could be a "crooked cop"
The thought had crossed my mind of going crazy for a bit after getting out of the suit, i wonder if Paine Asylum is accepting patients yet. I might just not put any story to it and hold off for a while till i get a better idea.
at some point maybe i'll finish my "story" posts of being a bane. I had a few plans that didn't work out.
getting to emote my frustration at learning i couldn't feel.
i altered my shape to add some fat, i wanted to gradually take it off again to simulate the "bane diet plan"
some other stuff i'm sure i am forgetting too.
B-9651
I should be out by Sunday for sure as long as i don't violate to much before then.
in addition to the default animations included in the SL library it also let me pick out any animations that were in my animations folder for me to use to make gestures.
I now have the ability to.
sit (for 25 seconds, setting it longer got boring)
point
blow a kiss.
tell someone to kiss my ass
do a backflip
plead
cry
i call it a ghetto AO.
also i'm nearing my original sentence time. only added time left now.
maybe i'll pester my operator some and see if i can goad her into adding time.
So i'm not sure still what i want to do RP wise with the whole bane existence. One of the joys of being a bane is supposed to be finding your eduamon, but if i do that then i'd never want out of the suit, which could get boring quick.
As i mentioned earlier when I dom i tend to do stuff i'd want done to me, which is why i don't think i want to be come an operator after i get out, i think i'd be more sadistic then most people wanted because as odd as it sounds i enjoy it when people are mean to me.
Though the thought had crossed my mind of maybe going "good" for a little, becoming an operator and maybe even joining the SLBI (or at least becoming an informant) for a little while, of course with the plan of "going evil" again at some point from the inside. i could be a "crooked cop"
The thought had crossed my mind of going crazy for a bit after getting out of the suit, i wonder if Paine Asylum is accepting patients yet. I might just not put any story to it and hold off for a while till i get a better idea.
at some point maybe i'll finish my "story" posts of being a bane. I had a few plans that didn't work out.
getting to emote my frustration at learning i couldn't feel.
i altered my shape to add some fat, i wanted to gradually take it off again to simulate the "bane diet plan"
some other stuff i'm sure i am forgetting too.
B-9651
I should be out by Sunday for sure as long as i don't violate to much before then.
More updates!
Okies,
So first off i'm doing alot better this week then i was last week, (and the half week before that.)
I'm down to under 20 hours on my sentance (it's closer to 15 but i don't want to log on right now and check.)
Talked to my operator for a little bit lastnight. She's been great about talking me off the ledge, since she's been reading my blog and helping me from stressing out to much from RL while my SL self is locked away.
We talked OOC for a bit on some theories of what my or may not triger a edueamon awakening. I'm not going to recount the discussion, so to not ruin it for anyone who may do the experience still, but i think i've got a good theory of what trigers it.
She told me about some of the evil things that the helmet can do. I talked her into turning up my violations durring the last few hours of my banishment, a little extra thrill as i run for the finish line.
I can't wait.
If i had one complaint, and it isn't a complaint as just a differing in styles it's that my operator could be a little more sadistic.
For instance, when talking to her the other day OOC'ly for a moment about the banishment experience she unpluged my vox, which i responded to with one short emote.
/me whines.
She mentioned how she hoped that it didn't earn me a violation (it didn't, it ussually takes the custodian two or three emotes to catch them or another communication violation first before it registers the emotes too, so generally a one word emote, once won't earn a violation...not allways but generally) and waved goodbye before going off to her event.
Now if I had been an operator, I would have...smirked...scolded the bane....then added a small violation to thier timer since the custodian didn't catch it.
but that's just me.
The rare occasions i take on a dominate mood i tend to dominate someone else how i imagine myself getting dominated sometimes.
Not that i'm asking anyone to change thier styles, just pointing out what i would do were situations reversed.
So first off i'm doing alot better this week then i was last week, (and the half week before that.)
I'm down to under 20 hours on my sentance (it's closer to 15 but i don't want to log on right now and check.)
Talked to my operator for a little bit lastnight. She's been great about talking me off the ledge, since she's been reading my blog and helping me from stressing out to much from RL while my SL self is locked away.
We talked OOC for a bit on some theories of what my or may not triger a edueamon awakening. I'm not going to recount the discussion, so to not ruin it for anyone who may do the experience still, but i think i've got a good theory of what trigers it.
She told me about some of the evil things that the helmet can do. I talked her into turning up my violations durring the last few hours of my banishment, a little extra thrill as i run for the finish line.
I can't wait.
If i had one complaint, and it isn't a complaint as just a differing in styles it's that my operator could be a little more sadistic.
For instance, when talking to her the other day OOC'ly for a moment about the banishment experience she unpluged my vox, which i responded to with one short emote.
/me whines.
She mentioned how she hoped that it didn't earn me a violation (it didn't, it ussually takes the custodian two or three emotes to catch them or another communication violation first before it registers the emotes too, so generally a one word emote, once won't earn a violation...not allways but generally) and waved goodbye before going off to her event.
Now if I had been an operator, I would have...smirked...scolded the bane....then added a small violation to thier timer since the custodian didn't catch it.
but that's just me.
The rare occasions i take on a dominate mood i tend to dominate someone else how i imagine myself getting dominated sometimes.
Not that i'm asking anyone to change thier styles, just pointing out what i would do were situations reversed.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Update
Okies, sorry I havn't been keeping up on updates as much as i should be. RL is hell right now and I haven't really been in the storytelling frame of mind, right now i'm just loggin on and trying to do my time quietly and quickly so i can move on. Which involves alot of loggin on and standing in a spot while i do something else.
under 30 hours left.
under 30 hours left.
Friday, May 9, 2008
update
Good news!
two updates in a row with no violations!
also i'm over halfway done with my time now, the "BEST" time is higher then the "TIME LEFT" which means i'm on the downhill now.
two updates in a row with no violations!
also i'm over halfway done with my time now, the "BEST" time is higher then the "TIME LEFT" which means i'm on the downhill now.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
so frustrated
i'm just so angry right now i'm having trouble keeping myself composed. this is a half sl half rl blog post. I've been having a lot of stressful stuff go on for a while now, some family issues, some school issues, job searching and just general money woe's. To top it all off i've been dealing with my car too. Where i live we have yearly inspections your car has to pass before they'll renew your license plate, mine won't pass these. so far i've spent $500 in repairs that didn't fix anything just so they could tell me what was wrong with the car(and that even though they had told me twice what was wrong with it, it was for sure this time and would be nearly $1700 with what they'd already done to it.) why did i spend $500? because the state says that is the minimum you have to have spent on repairs before they'll give you a waiver for the inspections. So i've wasted $500 not repairing my car but just them telling me what they think it is that is causing the light to be on and not letting me pass inspection. I've spent the last two days getting the run around from the states office, and my car dealer with trying to get the paperwork i need to get a waiver for my inspection. All of this finally came to an end today, So i took off work early yet again (i've wasted 3 of my five vacation days dealing with this.) today to go get it taken care of, I come to find out that the only inspection place within 20 miles is closed on Wednesdays.
So now if i want my license plates i'll have to go into work yet again late tomorrow morning.
now onto SL
i haven't even reached my halfway point in banishment yet, i'm just so angry at everything i'm not sure if i even want to do it right now. i really miss being a part of conversations. some of the most fun i have in SL is just chatting with someone about the most inane things, like building or where to find good items, or just rp experiences. this morning i logged on and there was a small party of people at the place i normally stand around(which is usually empty which is why i first started coming there and then being there as a BANE), and it made me really sad i couldn't be part of the conversation.
i'm not sure if i'm going to keep posting as much as i have been, i'm really really really stressed out right now, i'm not sure if i even want to finish doing this or not. i've got the second "Memory file" written up mostly and saved as a draft, i just haven't had the energy to finish it, let alone plan where i'm going with the story.
i don't know...being banished isn't "HARD" it's just logging on to a video game (chat program really) and not talking to anyone....it does require a great amount of willpower though to go through. Its hard to log onto a "game" about interaction and just not interact with anyone for 72 hours (which was a mistake on my part. But i figured it like this.....my longest stay in Tesscatraz was 48 hours [the max you could do at once] and if i was being banished on parole violations the sentence should be as long if not longer then the offense i got paroled on. my desire for realism bites me in the ass again.) i just feel so empty right now i'm not sure if i have the willpower for it.
So now if i want my license plates i'll have to go into work yet again late tomorrow morning.
now onto SL
i haven't even reached my halfway point in banishment yet, i'm just so angry at everything i'm not sure if i even want to do it right now. i really miss being a part of conversations. some of the most fun i have in SL is just chatting with someone about the most inane things, like building or where to find good items, or just rp experiences. this morning i logged on and there was a small party of people at the place i normally stand around(which is usually empty which is why i first started coming there and then being there as a BANE), and it made me really sad i couldn't be part of the conversation.
i'm not sure if i'm going to keep posting as much as i have been, i'm really really really stressed out right now, i'm not sure if i even want to finish doing this or not. i've got the second "Memory file" written up mostly and saved as a draft, i just haven't had the energy to finish it, let alone plan where i'm going with the story.
i don't know...being banished isn't "HARD" it's just logging on to a video game (chat program really) and not talking to anyone....it does require a great amount of willpower though to go through. Its hard to log onto a "game" about interaction and just not interact with anyone for 72 hours (which was a mistake on my part. But i figured it like this.....my longest stay in Tesscatraz was 48 hours [the max you could do at once] and if i was being banished on parole violations the sentence should be as long if not longer then the offense i got paroled on. my desire for realism bites me in the ass again.) i just feel so empty right now i'm not sure if i have the willpower for it.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
more updates
Weekly update today.
+1hr
So I've been debating something lately...Should i put the address for this blog on my profile in Sl.
on the one hand i like having people leave comments. On the other hand i'm not sure I want that many people reading this.
As it is now i know i have a few readers, and i often wonder how they find this place. Some i know i told the website to, others i think find it because i leave comments on another blog.
but if i put it on my profile then it opens up a whole new method of finding these writings and maybe leaving comments or whatever.
Now this is all based on the assumption that people read profiles, I personally devour profiles i enjoy reading everything someone was willing to put up and i often check every tab on a profile to see if they put something in it or not. It has been my experience that not everyone in SL is as thorough with profiles as I am.
So i say there is a 50% chance that if i did put it up on my profile i'd get new readers out of it.
+1hr
So I've been debating something lately...Should i put the address for this blog on my profile in Sl.
on the one hand i like having people leave comments. On the other hand i'm not sure I want that many people reading this.
As it is now i know i have a few readers, and i often wonder how they find this place. Some i know i told the website to, others i think find it because i leave comments on another blog.
but if i put it on my profile then it opens up a whole new method of finding these writings and maybe leaving comments or whatever.
Now this is all based on the assumption that people read profiles, I personally devour profiles i enjoy reading everything someone was willing to put up and i often check every tab on a profile to see if they put something in it or not. It has been my experience that not everyone in SL is as thorough with profiles as I am.
So i say there is a 50% chance that if i did put it up on my profile i'd get new readers out of it.
More and more daily updates!
Okies, so last night i had a run in with some one who apparently didn't know what a BANE was, she chased me down and kept trying to tell me how I didn't have to do this and How I had a choice, the quote was "Running around gagged in latex is no way to live" I don't think she understood that I couldn't communicate back, I ran from her as much as i could, the zone has an odd amount of lag that keeps me from running for more then a few steps at a time (the first time i felt it happen i guessed it was an effect of my custodian because i was overdue for maintenance, but it does it every time i go there.) and she followed and kept trying to talk to me, finally i was given a contact violation, at that point i had enough and just TP'ed home to avoid any further violations.
she tried to add me to her friends list after that, i just denied it. I'm not sure how long it will be until i'm out and explain, maybe i'll see her someday again, she had the spot i was at in her profile under her picks as a favorite place (people really need to learn to read profiles better you can find out some of the most interesting things about people and places that way) maybe i'll stop by and look for her after/if i get out.
B-9651
she tried to add me to her friends list after that, i just denied it. I'm not sure how long it will be until i'm out and explain, maybe i'll see her someday again, she had the spot i was at in her profile under her picks as a favorite place (people really need to learn to read profiles better you can find out some of the most interesting things about people and places that way) maybe i'll stop by and look for her after/if i get out.
B-9651
Monday, May 5, 2008
daily update
i fell asleep in my chair last night. I didn't mean to it was just a really long day and i dozed off. I just turned the computer off and went to bed when i woke up, i didn't check to see how long i was asleep for, guess i got a free hour off my sentence.
I try to not be logged on unless I'm at the computer. Sometimes I'll be reading while I'm sitting here. Sometimes working, other times working on the blog. but I'll always be at the computer i try to not log on then go do something else my time wears down.
I thought i had been so good all "week" without any violations. i did let me maintenance go for a while but i finally did that too.
then today while I was wandering around New DI i was trying to climb atop of prim alter/rock to get a screen shot of me sitting on top. My custodian knew i was trespassing and violated me quickly. My weekly report came in right after that, One more hour added, I was really hoping to see a clean one for once. maybe next time.
I try to not be logged on unless I'm at the computer. Sometimes I'll be reading while I'm sitting here. Sometimes working, other times working on the blog. but I'll always be at the computer i try to not log on then go do something else my time wears down.
I thought i had been so good all "week" without any violations. i did let me maintenance go for a while but i finally did that too.
then today while I was wandering around New DI i was trying to climb atop of prim alter/rock to get a screen shot of me sitting on top. My custodian knew i was trespassing and violated me quickly. My weekly report came in right after that, One more hour added, I was really hoping to see a clean one for once. maybe next time.
Saturday, May 3, 2008
update
i got my second "weekly" update, only 2 hours this time, much better then last time.
-UPDATE-
Okies so if I'm going to be posting so much i think I'm just going to update some of the smaller posts instead of making a new one each time.
So this morning I logged on to find that Payne's Asylum was gone. Not that it's a big deal it's just weird. They had this nice little fountain and flower box in their courtyard that i often stood behind while watching the people gather in front of Kelley Technologies. The land is still labeled as "Payne Asylum" just the buildings aren't there anymore.
Guess I've got to find a new hiding spot.
-UPDATE-
Okies so if I'm going to be posting so much i think I'm just going to update some of the smaller posts instead of making a new one each time.
So this morning I logged on to find that Payne's Asylum was gone. Not that it's a big deal it's just weird. They had this nice little fountain and flower box in their courtyard that i often stood behind while watching the people gather in front of Kelley Technologies. The land is still labeled as "Payne Asylum" just the buildings aren't there anymore.
Guess I've got to find a new hiding spot.
Friday, May 2, 2008
post crazy
ok, so I'm close to passing up April for posts already, but i suppose that's because i have something going on right now. plus writing is a good stress relief for me.
last one for tonight though and maybe tomorrow too, i might put the pt. 2 up Sunday I'm not sure I'm still thinking of it in my head, how to take what's happened in the past few days of life in SL and translate it into a story.
So i wish that the RLV had the ability to block group chat as well as IM's my groups keep going off, at least the product support ones i belong to that are pretty spam heavy. i close the window quick and that helps but it's still annoying. it's like a taunt because it's the only type of IM you can hear.
I've got to be more careful with violations if i want to get out.
ok, now an OOC note. I was hoping i could talk my operator into passing on an OOC message. One of the other group operators we both know asked me if she could observe the processing that night, I said I didn't mind, then she bowed out saying she couldn't stay up that late and asked me if i would be kind enough to send her a log and gave me her email to send it too. I said sure but i didn't have logs turned on like i thought i did. Could you please let her know so she doesn't think I'm just ignoring her request please? Or if you happen to have a log and don't mind passing it on please?
That is if that's not abusing the system.
B9651
last one for tonight though and maybe tomorrow too, i might put the pt. 2 up Sunday I'm not sure I'm still thinking of it in my head, how to take what's happened in the past few days of life in SL and translate it into a story.
So i wish that the RLV had the ability to block group chat as well as IM's my groups keep going off, at least the product support ones i belong to that are pretty spam heavy. i close the window quick and that helps but it's still annoying. it's like a taunt because it's the only type of IM you can hear.
I've got to be more careful with violations if i want to get out.
ok, now an OOC note. I was hoping i could talk my operator into passing on an OOC message. One of the other group operators we both know asked me if she could observe the processing that night, I said I didn't mind, then she bowed out saying she couldn't stay up that late and asked me if i would be kind enough to send her a log and gave me her email to send it too. I said sure but i didn't have logs turned on like i thought i did. Could you please let her know so she doesn't think I'm just ignoring her request please? Or if you happen to have a log and don't mind passing it on please?
That is if that's not abusing the system.
B9651
BANE Pt. 1 Processing
The following was an intercepted communication from Kelly Technologies Inc. Mainframe network:
File retrieved from Custodian B-9651 Memory Recording...000234132
-:Begin File:-
Today I turned myself in. I didn't make the final decision until yesterday. There were still several weeks until my deadline for going, but i had gotten drunk by myself that night and talked myself into it. I was up nearly all night with nerves, i think i might have still been a little buzzed when I went in. I picked out a little plaid dress to wear down to the lab, no point in dressing up it's not like it's court after all. I stopped outside before going in to collect myself and smoke a cig before i went inside, i doubt they would let me most buildings are nonsmoking nowadays anyway. Before I could even take them out a woman came out to greet me. She walked right over to me, they must have camera's or something. It's not like i would have been hard to spot with an ankle bracelet on. She was carrying a set of shackles with her, standard belt and cuffs, at least no ankle cuffs, probably because of all the stairs. She let me have my smoke before taking me inside. "Nasty Habit, Banishment will cure you of that too." she told me while she watched. It was just like going into jail, waist, wrists, hand on my elbow while she lead me inside, paper work paper work paper work. I was wrong it's worse then jail at least in jail they don't make you fill out so muc....
-:File Corrupted :-
-:System Restart:-
OH my god! I can't get up! T..this thing has me strapped in to tight, i..i can still hear the woman's voice. What's her name..i never asked...she just kept calling me Ms. Bao. I hate it when people use my last name, it just reminds me of how few of us there are left anymore.
"FUCK! what's that! NO! Don't shave my head!"
-:File Corrupted :-
-:System Restart:-
"NO! Get it off me! This isn't what i agreed too! This is worse then jail, I don't want it, please..."
She didn't listen, the hood was forced over my head, they had tied my arms again, i couldn't fight it anymore. Everything was dark, it hugged around my head to tightly...was this made for me? What did they do to me while I was out!?!?!
I saw the tub when i was brought into the room, it's black like oil, i can hear her talking about it now,
"I don't want to get in it, please don't make me..."
"Custodian, Punish..."
-:File Corrupted :-
-:System Restart:-
Oh god! It's everywhere, i can feel it squeezing me! I want out please! She won't stop talking, she won't stop talking, she won't stop calling me that number, I'd give anything if she just called me Ms. Bao one more time, I don't want this it isn't what i bargained for. I can't stop crying inside the hood. It isn't even like really crying, i could taste the latex like material in my mouth, feel it in my nose...i couldn't feel the tears on my skin, and my vision never got blurry, I'm not even really seeing anymore. i don't have eyes just this heavy ball head.
Once the door open i ran as fast as i could from the place, i had to escape that house of torture.
I stopped somewhere in the woods next to a tree, i don't know when i fell asleep i just know i cried myself there.
-: File End :-
File retrieved from Custodian B-9651 Memory Recording...000234132
-:Begin File:-
Today I turned myself in. I didn't make the final decision until yesterday. There were still several weeks until my deadline for going, but i had gotten drunk by myself that night and talked myself into it. I was up nearly all night with nerves, i think i might have still been a little buzzed when I went in. I picked out a little plaid dress to wear down to the lab, no point in dressing up it's not like it's court after all. I stopped outside before going in to collect myself and smoke a cig before i went inside, i doubt they would let me most buildings are nonsmoking nowadays anyway. Before I could even take them out a woman came out to greet me. She walked right over to me, they must have camera's or something. It's not like i would have been hard to spot with an ankle bracelet on. She was carrying a set of shackles with her, standard belt and cuffs, at least no ankle cuffs, probably because of all the stairs. She let me have my smoke before taking me inside. "Nasty Habit, Banishment will cure you of that too." she told me while she watched. It was just like going into jail, waist, wrists, hand on my elbow while she lead me inside, paper work paper work paper work. I was wrong it's worse then jail at least in jail they don't make you fill out so muc....
-:File Corrupted :-
-:System Restart:-
OH my god! I can't get up! T..this thing has me strapped in to tight, i..i can still hear the woman's voice. What's her name..i never asked...she just kept calling me Ms. Bao. I hate it when people use my last name, it just reminds me of how few of us there are left anymore.
"FUCK! what's that! NO! Don't shave my head!"
-:File Corrupted :-
-:System Restart:-
"NO! Get it off me! This isn't what i agreed too! This is worse then jail, I don't want it, please..."
She didn't listen, the hood was forced over my head, they had tied my arms again, i couldn't fight it anymore. Everything was dark, it hugged around my head to tightly...was this made for me? What did they do to me while I was out!?!?!
I saw the tub when i was brought into the room, it's black like oil, i can hear her talking about it now,
"I don't want to get in it, please don't make me..."
"Custodian, Punish..."
-:File Corrupted :-
-:System Restart:-
Oh god! It's everywhere, i can feel it squeezing me! I want out please! She won't stop talking, she won't stop talking, she won't stop calling me that number, I'd give anything if she just called me Ms. Bao one more time, I don't want this it isn't what i bargained for. I can't stop crying inside the hood. It isn't even like really crying, i could taste the latex like material in my mouth, feel it in my nose...i couldn't feel the tears on my skin, and my vision never got blurry, I'm not even really seeing anymore. i don't have eyes just this heavy ball head.
Once the door open i ran as fast as i could from the place, i had to escape that house of torture.
I stopped somewhere in the woods next to a tree, i don't know when i fell asleep i just know i cried myself there.
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frustrated
i did something dumb. I've had a really hard week in RL, i'm having a lot of problems with my car on top of a lot of other stuff that's been going on for a while that's been wearing at me.
So right after i got my first weekly report today, i was a little annoyed and logged off SL, then two minutes later got a phone call saying that my car couldn't get fixed today and they were gonna have to hold onto it until Monday because they don't do service on Saturdays.
i was a little mad, for a lot of reasons that i don't want to go into but they should have started this work yesterday so i had my car back today, instead they worked on something that wasn't the problem, and now i'm out a car all weekend.
so i managed to get back on SL after that trying to calm down some, and in my anger at my car, and a little at myself for getting so angry over it, i wracked up a large number of violations in a short bit. several for yelling at the top of my lungs (well typing out how mad i was.) and several for running.
so now i'm mad and i've added probably hours to my sentence.
i should really get around to writing the first part of my banishment story, but i'm really not in the right mind right now.
Promise i'll get it done before the weekend, without a car i won't have much else to do, and if I don't have it up here by Monday 5/5 then i give anyone reading this to bump me inworld for a contact violation as punishment
B-9651
So right after i got my first weekly report today, i was a little annoyed and logged off SL, then two minutes later got a phone call saying that my car couldn't get fixed today and they were gonna have to hold onto it until Monday because they don't do service on Saturdays.
i was a little mad, for a lot of reasons that i don't want to go into but they should have started this work yesterday so i had my car back today, instead they worked on something that wasn't the problem, and now i'm out a car all weekend.
so i managed to get back on SL after that trying to calm down some, and in my anger at my car, and a little at myself for getting so angry over it, i wracked up a large number of violations in a short bit. several for yelling at the top of my lungs (well typing out how mad i was.) and several for running.
so now i'm mad and i've added probably hours to my sentence.
i should really get around to writing the first part of my banishment story, but i'm really not in the right mind right now.
Promise i'll get it done before the weekend, without a car i won't have much else to do, and if I don't have it up here by Monday 5/5 then i give anyone reading this to bump me inworld for a contact violation as punishment
B-9651
musings
So i got over not being able to have an AO, mostly by cheating, i saw another bane with hers on and snapped some shots, i mean we all look alike so who's gonna know that the bane under a tree in my profile is bane N-whatshername and not B-9651.
A still haven't gotten my "weekly" report yet on violations. I'm really curious as to what causes a violation, would me trying to IM someone earn one? Someone sent me an IM yesterday that thankfull dosen't earn any
((And before anyone leaves a comment, I don't want to know the answer, i've tried very hard to not have people ruin it for me as to what and what is not a violation, and what the experience may be like))
UPDATE- I got my weekly report, +7hr, the past two days have just been whipped out.
i screamed.
it could be worse, the way everyone was making it sound for emoting violations i thought i'd get a whole day added or something.
A still haven't gotten my "weekly" report yet on violations. I'm really curious as to what causes a violation, would me trying to IM someone earn one? Someone sent me an IM yesterday that thankfull dosen't earn any
((And before anyone leaves a comment, I don't want to know the answer, i've tried very hard to not have people ruin it for me as to what and what is not a violation, and what the experience may be like))
UPDATE- I got my weekly report, +7hr, the past two days have just been whipped out.
i screamed.
it could be worse, the way everyone was making it sound for emoting violations i thought i'd get a whole day added or something.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
OMG 3 in one day
so this is really just more stuff i forgot.
I've turned off avatar names so it's harder to identify the other BANES, i've got to keep reminding myself to not just hover my mouse over top of them and view their profiles. i do that a lot now viewing profiles is one of the few freedoms the custodian allows.
So i'm at Zhora right not, watching all the people outside play with vehicals wishing i could join in. I recognized on of the tanks someone pulled out it's the same one Cait drives, i bought an anti tank weapon i was going to surprise her with, wish i could have joined in the fun too.
I've had a really rough night/afternoon RL.
When I logged on for a bit after I got home, Wildefire was on, I wish i could have talked to Her, she's always good about calming me down and keeping me calmer.
just random bane thoughts
B-9651
((So I'm ULTRA dyslexic aparently because i've had my number wrong for a whole day. i looked on my collar. ooops.))
I've turned off avatar names so it's harder to identify the other BANES, i've got to keep reminding myself to not just hover my mouse over top of them and view their profiles. i do that a lot now viewing profiles is one of the few freedoms the custodian allows.
So i'm at Zhora right not, watching all the people outside play with vehicals wishing i could join in. I recognized on of the tanks someone pulled out it's the same one Cait drives, i bought an anti tank weapon i was going to surprise her with, wish i could have joined in the fun too.
I've had a really rough night/afternoon RL.
When I logged on for a bit after I got home, Wildefire was on, I wish i could have talked to Her, she's always good about calming me down and keeping me calmer.
just random bane thoughts
B-9651
((So I'm ULTRA dyslexic aparently because i've had my number wrong for a whole day. i looked on my collar. ooops.))
Stuff I forgot and day 1 pt 2
Ok, so two posts in one day, banishment must be good for my creativity. Which i think is true, I came up with more ideas the week I was locked in Ghrul's Federal then the few months/weeks prior. Anyway....
I forgot to mention this, but I am not the only Bao, contrary to popular belief, I finally found someone with the same last name as I, she was rezed just several days after myself, guess that makes me the older Sister. I didn't talk to her long, just saw the profile and said Hi to the only other Bao in SL.
Oh, also while I was waiting to be a BANE i wrote a small note card on some of the finer points of character development, just kind of a "How to for newbies" to making a character and background, i'd re-post it here but i don't have access to my inventory in SL to open it to copy and paste.
So today was my first day as a BANE, i wandered around the Desperation Island a lot, i hadn't done that much since it got moved to "New Desperation Island" normally i just head right out to the building area. There are some really neat bits of scenery out there. I wish my operator would have allowed me an AO, not that the cheap free one i use would do me much good but it'd be nice to sit for a bit when need be so that i could snap shots of myself to accompany the story.
I ran off 2 other banes today...i earned one a proximity violation (myself included) which i feel bad about but she should have backed off, the other girl knew what was up and retreated when i charged her. I spent the next 20 minutes walking a small circuit up and down the path i had claimed from them.
I've had my first maintenance, figures i'd get the LM for the busted station that Marine set out a LM for earlier today, thankfully I was already in Zhora so I just walked over to the one at Kelley Tech. Got a snapshot for my three PICKS i still have on my profile, now just need one of the labs and then something for my other one.
I've racked up quite a few violations, i haven't had a "weekly report" yet though so i'm not sure how long it's added, once i find out the ratio i'll decide if i should be more carefull or not. i have a feeling it's going to be bad.
B-9561 (I'm dyslexic and i always transpose the 1 and five when i try to write my own number.)
I forgot to mention this, but I am not the only Bao, contrary to popular belief, I finally found someone with the same last name as I, she was rezed just several days after myself, guess that makes me the older Sister. I didn't talk to her long, just saw the profile and said Hi to the only other Bao in SL.
Oh, also while I was waiting to be a BANE i wrote a small note card on some of the finer points of character development, just kind of a "How to for newbies" to making a character and background, i'd re-post it here but i don't have access to my inventory in SL to open it to copy and paste.
So today was my first day as a BANE, i wandered around the Desperation Island a lot, i hadn't done that much since it got moved to "New Desperation Island" normally i just head right out to the building area. There are some really neat bits of scenery out there. I wish my operator would have allowed me an AO, not that the cheap free one i use would do me much good but it'd be nice to sit for a bit when need be so that i could snap shots of myself to accompany the story.
I ran off 2 other banes today...i earned one a proximity violation (myself included) which i feel bad about but she should have backed off, the other girl knew what was up and retreated when i charged her. I spent the next 20 minutes walking a small circuit up and down the path i had claimed from them.
I've had my first maintenance, figures i'd get the LM for the busted station that Marine set out a LM for earlier today, thankfully I was already in Zhora so I just walked over to the one at Kelley Tech. Got a snapshot for my three PICKS i still have on my profile, now just need one of the labs and then something for my other one.
I've racked up quite a few violations, i haven't had a "weekly report" yet though so i'm not sure how long it's added, once i find out the ratio i'll decide if i should be more carefull or not. i have a feeling it's going to be bad.
B-9561 (I'm dyslexic and i always transpose the 1 and five when i try to write my own number.)
Post Bane OOC
Ok, so first things first.
I failed miserable at my attempted update schedule. Only 8 posts for April which is i think my lowest yet, and feb. i started late in the month!
So no goals for May.
Ok, now that that's out of the way. Guess what, I got banished! B-9561 so to keep in the spirit of this, i'm going to stop signing with bunnies for a bit and only sign with my number.
Ok, now last bit of business then onto the juicy stuff.... I've decided i'm going to keep two running blogs about my life as a bane, the IC one where i take a lot of dramatic liberties with the rp that went on and craft it into a story. Then also i'm going to have this one which i'll call BD or (bane daily) which is my OOC report of what's going on with me.
So i got processed, i won't go into detail here save to say it was by a Goddess of a woman (There i fulfilled my promise to only refer to you as such if i mentioned it in the blog.)) Who was very kind to set up an appointment with me and getting me processed after waiting most of the week.
well Sunday through Wednesday.
Anyway so i'm all sealed away, no contact for a bit, profile changed etc etc etc.
So despite my best efforts of trying to not read about the experience so to not ruin it for myself, i did know a little about the BANE program before going in, like how the no building thing was processed. Needless to say my first few hours were testing custodial violations, I thought for a bit maybe the building sensor was busted (I know how it works but won't spoil it for anyone who doesn't) I had heard that it'd been updated to recognize roads now so i thought maybe the update broke the whole system.
i'm sad/happy to report that is not the case and i finally got a violation for going into the buildings, lucky me.
Oh well i guess if i don't wrack up violations i won't have anything to make into a story when i write that half of this.
The bright side to this little thought of mine (which i now know to be wrong) was that it gave me the confidence to teleport somewhere.
I Teleported to my homepoint on Desperation Island, which i was a little scared to do at first because it was in the middle of the mall, but armed with my confidence that the item may have been broken and wouldn't report (It wasn't) i TP'ed out there and ran like hell into the grass. So now I have a little more scenery to look at, i'd like to swim to the other island DI North and South but i'm afraid to get kicked by the houses security orbs out there.
Also I'm curious about something, in essence the helmets work much like the other RR stuff, with plug-ins and everything, so do the custodians have the "Long Time" plug-in? if so i wonder if i could get Sabra hide my timer from my view, if i can see how long i have i'll just sit there and clock watch.
ok, that's it for now, i think my first IC post will be in a few days, it'll probably cover my processing and first few nights as a bane, i think they'll cover weeks to a month at a time IC in each "chapter" of the story.
B-9561
I failed miserable at my attempted update schedule. Only 8 posts for April which is i think my lowest yet, and feb. i started late in the month!
So no goals for May.
Ok, now that that's out of the way. Guess what, I got banished! B-9561 so to keep in the spirit of this, i'm going to stop signing with bunnies for a bit and only sign with my number.
Ok, now last bit of business then onto the juicy stuff.... I've decided i'm going to keep two running blogs about my life as a bane, the IC one where i take a lot of dramatic liberties with the rp that went on and craft it into a story. Then also i'm going to have this one which i'll call BD or (bane daily) which is my OOC report of what's going on with me.
So i got processed, i won't go into detail here save to say it was by a Goddess of a woman (There i fulfilled my promise to only refer to you as such if i mentioned it in the blog.)) Who was very kind to set up an appointment with me and getting me processed after waiting most of the week.
well Sunday through Wednesday.
Anyway so i'm all sealed away, no contact for a bit, profile changed etc etc etc.
So despite my best efforts of trying to not read about the experience so to not ruin it for myself, i did know a little about the BANE program before going in, like how the no building thing was processed. Needless to say my first few hours were testing custodial violations, I thought for a bit maybe the building sensor was busted (I know how it works but won't spoil it for anyone who doesn't) I had heard that it'd been updated to recognize roads now so i thought maybe the update broke the whole system.
i'm sad/happy to report that is not the case and i finally got a violation for going into the buildings, lucky me.
Oh well i guess if i don't wrack up violations i won't have anything to make into a story when i write that half of this.
The bright side to this little thought of mine (which i now know to be wrong) was that it gave me the confidence to teleport somewhere.
I Teleported to my homepoint on Desperation Island, which i was a little scared to do at first because it was in the middle of the mall, but armed with my confidence that the item may have been broken and wouldn't report (It wasn't) i TP'ed out there and ran like hell into the grass. So now I have a little more scenery to look at, i'd like to swim to the other island DI North and South but i'm afraid to get kicked by the houses security orbs out there.
Also I'm curious about something, in essence the helmets work much like the other RR stuff, with plug-ins and everything, so do the custodians have the "Long Time" plug-in? if so i wonder if i could get Sabra hide my timer from my view, if i can see how long i have i'll just sit there and clock watch.
ok, that's it for now, i think my first IC post will be in a few days, it'll probably cover my processing and first few nights as a bane, i think they'll cover weeks to a month at a time IC in each "chapter" of the story.
B-9561
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