Sept Post, Free Bane, Product Reviews and more!

Ok, So It's been a bit since I posted so I've go quite a few things to cover.
First of all I'm out of the bane suit, no Edueamon this time either. Oh well. I joined the ranks of the operators, so hopefully people won't get stuck in the same problem I was, no operators on when they were in the evening.
So About halfway through something odd happened to me. Someone came to speak to me. Honestly I was afk fixing dinner when it happened but she left a little bot with scripted text above it for me to read so there wouldn't be a contact violation. Which is a really clever idea, but It disappeared just after I noticed it, so I didn't get to see the message.
Plus I'm horrible with names and forgot her name too...sorry if you're reading this, feel free to drop me a line in game sometime.
So I'm cutting this to a very short post because I've got to get to work soon, but after getting out of the suit I went shopping.
Mesmerize Dungeon now carries a set of cuffs as well as their latex lines. On the recommendation of some friends I picked up a set. I had a few problems with bugs in them at first, but after that I've been very satisfied with them.
A solid 4 out of 5 bunneh review. I'll try to get a full review of their features and why it's 4 and not 5 out of 5.
Also she sells a very cute hobble doll dress, which I'm in love with, and would give a good 5 out f 5, even though I do have two small problems with it's design but I'll go into more detail on that later.
Take care peoples I'll be back when I can!

it's so boring being a BANE if you don't have some rp fantasy to go along with it.
I'm seriously just debating quitting. I've already been through it once. Haven't seen my operator in almost a week now, and just logging on to wait out the timer while i stand in one or two spots and don't get to talk to anyone has stopped being entertaining.
I have to admit I'm still a little bitter over the whole operator thing, I went from having one of the most attentive ones to having an absentee one.
I think this might be my last blog post for a bit, I don't want to turn this into a spot of me whining about how bored I am for the next month.
If something changes I'll keep that posted.
B-2950

Life as a BANE

So I did some stupid stuff yesterday. Frustrated over being bored I just let SL sit while I watched a video on the TV. Durring that time i'd walk over occasionally to move myself some so I wouldn't get kicked offline.
Well while not paying attention to what I was doing someone decided to walk up to me and try togive me a hug, "CONTACT VIOLATION" which is what made me look back up at the computer and be concerned. So a little bit later my weekly update came in.
+2hr Try Harder B2950
That should teach me to afk while banished.

The Real 50th

So I did some counting, and I had one draft stored (which I just deleted) plus 49 total posts (Blogger does not include comments in the count)
So now I really do have 50 posts!
yay!
Positive!
oh, also I turned on anonymous comments so those few people who may have learned about my ramblings but don't have an account to leave a message can still leave messages!
so that's two positive things this post!
Double my promised rate!
Bethany Bunneh
B-2950

50th post!

So according to blogger this is my 50th post, but i think that includes comments and stuff too.
Banishment is getting along. I've been really busy lately so i haven't been online much. My time is going by so slow I'm barely even getting the "three hour average" that they base release times on, at 84 hours i was like 9 weeks estimated or so, but I'm really behind that.
Haven't seen my operator on in a few days. I wonder what happens with that. I wonder if you can change operators while under banishment. I know she's been online (checked common groups we share) we are just on completely different schedules. It figures the one operator i found who was on the same schedule as myself and she wouldn't do it because it became a hassle for her. Everyone else was either European (at least 6 hour time difference) or they were just on a daytime schedule while I'm at work.
I'm just really frustrated that there was such a huge buildup of my second banishment then some shit happened and it's no where near as much fun as the 2 months build up should have made it.
Not like i can even tell anyone she was the only person i could talk to.
So bored with it this time, at least the first time it made it thrilling because i knew there was someone watching over me who took an active interest in my "rehabilitation" this time I'm just waiting around for nothing.
Sorry if i seem a little bitter about it.

My helmet did something odd earlier today, Someone TP'ed in on me (my fault for standing next to a building with a teleport pad in it) and after a few moments (i'm not sure how long I wasn't looking at the screen at the time so she could have been there for a few minutes before i noticed) i got a contact violation for approaching another bane. even though there were only two people in the sim, myself and this mystery visitor (i forgot her name)


Other then that It's been a lot of standing around.
on an unrelated note. God i miss dominate men. It dosen't even have to be a man, i just really miss people with a good dominate attititude. It's more then just barking out orders it's the whole persona. The few friends I had online that had "It" have all dissapeared. One in the armed forces (well He stopped talking to me long before that when I wouldn't be His girlfriend, that is unless he's horny then he'll talk to me for a little bit about stuff, get bored and go back to videogames, super dominate attitude, little boys mentality still), the other one just dropped off the face of the internet.
Everyone else i flirt/play with online just doesn't have "it". Nothing irritates me more then a guy asking if he can do something every step of the way(there is a difference between asking what a person would like, vs asking for permission to do that thing. For a dominate the first is ok, the second choice isn't.) "can I take this off." or they just completely ignore my half of the Rp (read as "my kinks".)
I've had so many RP partners that would read my profiles (which when i'm out to RP are pretty specific about what I like) and then try to take me out of bondage.
"Oh you're really into restraint? That's cool. Let me unlock all that stuff you took forever to describe to me, you must not want to wearing it since you took so much time writing all that out."
In SL it's not much better. My former Mistress who very much had "IT" in spades retired and I hardly ever talk to her anymore (which is really kind of sad for me). The few other friends I have that are dominate either have "It" but aren't into RP and will just lock stuff (which is fun too in a different way but not nearly as satisfying and requires me to put a lot more 'imagination' into it, so to speak in a fantasy 3d world)
The one friend I have who had both "IT" and could RP well, isn't interested in me and told me flat out one night she found me annoying, (it's a little more complicated then that, i'm paraphrasing the conversation) and even though I've gotten over what she said, and I get her intent even if the wording was a little poorly chosen, I doubt we'll ever get pass the "hey" stage of just saying 'Hi'

One last thing. Marine updated the RLV client again, to work off the newest version of SL but i'm a little scared to update, last thing i need is problems because my helmet doesn't recognize the new version and accuses me of cheating.
I didn't mean to turn this into a long whining post, I write stream of consciousness a lot and it sort of just flowed out. I promise the next time i post it will be positive.
-Bethany

Do i still have readers?

Most of the time this isn't something that I would worry about, though since I took a month off from writing I'm more then curious if I still have any readers left.
So just sound off if you want too, leave an anonymous message or something even if you don't have an account.

Daily BANE update pt 4

Ok,
So I had a nice little chat with Bluezy last night, got to beg for release and then denied. I tried to walk "home" back to Zhora after meeting with my operator, she took me a few sims over on the mainland to talk to me (her home.) I don't walk around in SL much, i came across two no script parcels of land which were hell to get across, and then got stuck behind a fence and some poorly designed land (who puts an angular ditch behind their fence?) and had to TP when I was one sim away.
Oh well.
Going better but still much more boring then the first time for various reasons.
b-2950

Trippled my projected post count!

so three posts in the month of July that's a lot better then i thought it would be.
So I'm most of the way through my second day of banishment, got my first update, +2hrs
I'm really thankful for Bluezy taking care of my banishment but i wish i would have waited and found someone who was on the same schedule as me. I haven't seen Bluezy online all day(we're on different halves of the world from each other) so that's not a huge surprise.
So far it's been alot of standing around in Zhora.
8 hours down some 78 more to go.
I find myself super curious about the control side of the custodian, i'm curious if it has all the same plug-ins and features as the rest of Marine's cuffs or if she put in a bare bones version for controlling the BANES.
oh well doubt i'll ever find out.
B-2950

Banishment the second time around

:::Now keep in mind the following are my personal feelings and not in any way reflective of the experience for everyone during banishment:::
Ok, so I've been debating writing this for a bit now, I've had a lot of conflicting thoughts on the whole affair but I've settled on what I want to say and feel the need to get it off my chest.
So right after i got out of banishment i wanted to go right back in, well sort of. I wanted in the suit again but wanted to take a break to get some things done i had come up with while banished.
So my operator at the time said she would put me back in once I started begging to get back in. which is not something i normally do, i'm not big on begging for things. But it made her happy so I swallowed my pride and started asking for it. She said no...so some stuff happens and she begins to put me off, everytime i brought it up i was told "soon."
Soon turned into weeks, which turned into a month which turned into two.
At two months i finally hit my breaking point and yelled at her. A day later i cooled down and apologized, but out of the whole argument I decided to stop waiting, decided on a time for the sentence and added my name to the waiting list again.
This aparently lit a fire under my operators ass because she finally agreed to process me...followed later that night by finding out, due to a clerical error she wasn't on the security orb at the labs and had to get put back on before she could handle me.
I found out a few days latter that she contacted Marine and Marine basically brushed her off and asked her to contact one of the officers to take care of it.
Now nothing against Marine, i've meet her in passing a few times but don't really know her that well, but from what i've gathered from other people, she can be a bit curt sometimes. Which i can fully understand she makes one of the most popular brands of restraints in SL plus the other projects she runs, i'm sure she gets requests for various things alot.
Well my former operator took this the wrong way and told me she thought it was a hassle to have to track down an officer she didn't know and get added back onto the security list.
So it went from "Yes, soon." to "soon" to "no" to "yes" to "no" again.
I think that's a little unfair, she asked me to jump through hoops for two months just to get her to keep a promise to me, the first time she had to jump through a hoop for someone else, well then that was game over.
So needless to say I'm frustrated, and I begin to look for someone else to do it. The few people i know who I'd enjoy playing the processing with are either on different schedules then myself or are't working on new BANE's anymore.
In this time i'm contacted by a few operators but no one I'm interested in, mostly because they don't even ask anything about me, our schedules or anything at all. It's sort of the difference between people who want to make sure the person going through the experience is having as good a time as possible and want to take care of their charges, versus those operators who just want to go through the rp of putting someone in the suit.
That's how i see it at least.
So Ia lmost gave up right then, but I'm friends with one of the Engineers for the program (officers) who said she would put me in the suit if I wanted. So I called in the favor from her, which is fine and I'm thankful for it, but I'm regretting it a little. She was more then a little shakey on the whole process, having not banished someone for quite some time, and we almost had a big disaster when my helmet got locked to early and i almost couldn't put my skin on.
I don't think this will be as fun of a time because i'm going to be on my own for most of it. With my last operator I was thrilled because i knew someone was excited to be watching me, would sometimes check in on me via the remote monitoring in the collar and would sometimes offer encouragements via the communication system in the collar.
Versus a friend who is just going to hold onto my keys for me for several weeks.
and nothing against my current operator, but she let me walk all over her during the processing, anything I asked for would just OK.
So I had fun getting back in the suit, got myself a few violations last night saying bye to a friend, but now that I'm just sitting her in it I'm more then a little bored.
And i've had some offers for help once some events happen, but there is no promise of the events happening, they didn't last time. So i think i'm stuck by myself for the next 80 hours online.
B-2950
oh yeah and my number changed I'm now 2950

Update for July, more to come later!

Ok,
So my updates have sort of fallen off. There are several reasons for that, but I’m going to try my best to keep up at least one update a month no matter what.
I’ll probably make it to two updates today because I have this one which is general, I’ve got some product information to give out, and then I’ve got a post about being a BANE that I want to get off my chest.
First off…around the start of the month my friend Caitlyn told me about a skin sale at Sin Skins and gave me 200L for my rezday (which was July 4th, I was rezed on the fourth of July :-P ) I bought one new skin of light makeup to replace the freebie skin I had been using since I first came to SL some two years ago. I also bought a geisha style skin and a drow skin. I love skin sales, you get what is normally a 1000$L item for around 200-300$L Overall I’m pretty happy with the quality of the skins, of course new skins needed new hair so I went over to Calla and got myself a black hairstyle to wear as a geisha, (I already had a kimono, but that’s another story) as well as a white hair style to wear as a drow (and a dress too that was semi elfish) I don’t have access to my inventory to find the Landmark for the island and get a SURL for it so people can find the places I’m talking about but I plan on doing that in the future for reviews.
So besides that I also broke down and bought one of t hose KaS corsets that everyone has nowadays, but to tell the truth I only did it because it was on sale. I belong to a group in SL that used the corset (and the neck corset) as part of a uniform and had a deal worked out for a group vendor at a discounted price. Now I like the idea of the corset and it has a very realistic feature, having to wear the prim for a long time in order to tighten the corset, it’s not worth the full price for what it does. I feel the same about the neck corset both of which require drastic changes to my shape in order to fit properly and it’s just not worth the money to make all those changes when I can find clothes and just alter my shape for free that simulate the look.
Ok, so another post later about Banishment, I finally made it back into a helmet/suit, not with the same operator which I’m kind of disappointed about and I’ll get into why about that too.
Bethany Bunneh
Aka
B2950

OMG an update!!

Heya, so not many updates for the month of June,(or the second half of may for that matter) that is mostly because there hasn't been much going on in SL.
Switched lieges in Tiny Empires to help a friend attempt to climb her way up the ladder to queen of her own kingdom. Found out some of the rules about how you get subjects. Determined i need subjects but that i can't recruit anyone unless they're a baroness or above all ready.
Bought this neat little Mind Control Key from Hypnodolls, so far i haven't been able to figure out how it works. It would have been nicer to find out exactly what it did before i bought it. I like the hypnodols stuff, ((the only piece of furniture i own, which is set up on New Desperation Isle, is their hypnotron (the original version) even though I haven't gone and sat in one for ages.))
Anyway, no full review because i can't figure out how to get it to work, which kind of sucks, i was thinking it was more like a wind up key.
Oh well lessons learned.
I'd still like to find myself a good wind up key for my doll look. The one i bought was buggy as all get-out and i never got it to work right. No support from the maker too, which blows big time...i all ready did a post about them a while back if you're curious about looking up who it was.
Ok, so i will try my best to not make it so long between blog posts, but i can't make any promises. I write what i feel and i don't always feel like writing. So to my intrepid readers you'll just have to wait until that literary bug bites me again.

MB Iso Harness

Iso harness:
Okies, I got this item because on the little addvertisement for it, it listed a "Breathplay" feature which one of my many many "it buttons" and it claims to be RLV compatible but that's where a lot of my complaints about it came into play.
Likes:
I love the breathplay feature, it even has noseplugs. In order to keep from "passing out" the sub has to keep typing in random codes on /5 and they are really random codes, numbers and letters, so it can get tough, you've got about 20 seconds to do each.
I love the price too, at $450L it is cheaper then similar head harnesses.
Dislikes:
The RLV features are problematic at best. The blindfold hud doesn't self destruct and gets stuck on, i was required to re-log each time it got attached so that i could take it off.(or more importantly put other attachments on, because the hud considered itself locked)
Also it was a little hard to fit the plugs into my nose properly, i had to do quite a bit of editing to get the whole thing to look right.
Also the only way to get to the menu for the item is to have it locked on, which can be problematic for those people who just wear them for fashion.

Overall
I'll give it a 3 out of 5 bunneh review, mostly because of the problems with the RLV functionality, and the menu thing.

Lookit i posted!

omg it's been forever.
ok first thing first, un-banished. i struggled free 5 hours early. First person to struggle out of a BANE suit and as far as i know also the only one currently.
I've been out for about a week or so now. A lot of shopping has happened...well not a lot but enough to keep me busy.
I discovered a whole super heroine RP sim. wrote up a character for myself and now i've just got to decide on a costume.
in my head i see something short, form fitting, and barefoot. but i've been having one hell of a time finding socks that i want...i'm picturing that tape look that you see fighter people wearing.
the story i've picked is a medium range fighter who shoots blasts by punching and kicking in the air, and some other stuff too.
baring that i was thinking the gun bunneh look maybe and just be...gun bunneh...the other superhero name i was thinking of was "Shockwave"
So i'm so into the idea of going back into banishment with "harsh" settings this time...i.e. getting my operator tot urn up all the violations to thier most sensitive and restrictive levels. i'd like to do just a short sentence 24 hours, sort of finishing out what i had.
if i continued with the story though, as an "escapee" of the program i should do a full 96 hour sentence but i'm not sure i could get into that much time away again.
okies, I've also got a product review to do but i'm going to make another post for that so that it's easier to read/find.

some RP stuff, plus others

So after 70 hours of banishment i figured out something. I don't need an AO because i can still use gestures. which i discovered on accident the /cry gesture was active which was only an animation. which means i could use it but not get a violation. Also if you open up the gesture window (ctrl+G for those future banes who may read this) you can create new gestures from there.
in addition to the default animations included in the SL library it also let me pick out any animations that were in my animations folder for me to use to make gestures.

I now have the ability to.
sit (for 25 seconds, setting it longer got boring)
point
blow a kiss.
tell someone to kiss my ass
do a backflip
plead
cry
i call it a ghetto AO.
also i'm nearing my original sentence time. only added time left now.
maybe i'll pester my operator some and see if i can goad her into adding time.

So i'm not sure still what i want to do RP wise with the whole bane existence. One of the joys of being a bane is supposed to be finding your eduamon, but if i do that then i'd never want out of the suit, which could get boring quick.
As i mentioned earlier when I dom i tend to do stuff i'd want done to me, which is why i don't think i want to be come an operator after i get out, i think i'd be more sadistic then most people wanted because as odd as it sounds i enjoy it when people are mean to me.
Though the thought had crossed my mind of maybe going "good" for a little, becoming an operator and maybe even joining the SLBI (or at least becoming an informant) for a little while, of course with the plan of "going evil" again at some point from the inside. i could be a "crooked cop"
The thought had crossed my mind of going crazy for a bit after getting out of the suit, i wonder if Paine Asylum is accepting patients yet. I might just not put any story to it and hold off for a while till i get a better idea.
at some point maybe i'll finish my "story" posts of being a bane. I had a few plans that didn't work out.
getting to emote my frustration at learning i couldn't feel.
i altered my shape to add some fat, i wanted to gradually take it off again to simulate the "bane diet plan"
some other stuff i'm sure i am forgetting too.
B-9651
I should be out by Sunday for sure as long as i don't violate to much before then.

More updates!

Okies,
So first off i'm doing alot better this week then i was last week, (and the half week before that.)
I'm down to under 20 hours on my sentance (it's closer to 15 but i don't want to log on right now and check.)
Talked to my operator for a little bit lastnight. She's been great about talking me off the ledge, since she's been reading my blog and helping me from stressing out to much from RL while my SL self is locked away.
We talked OOC for a bit on some theories of what my or may not triger a edueamon awakening. I'm not going to recount the discussion, so to not ruin it for anyone who may do the experience still, but i think i've got a good theory of what trigers it.
She told me about some of the evil things that the helmet can do. I talked her into turning up my violations durring the last few hours of my banishment, a little extra thrill as i run for the finish line.
I can't wait.
If i had one complaint, and it isn't a complaint as just a differing in styles it's that my operator could be a little more sadistic.
For instance, when talking to her the other day OOC'ly for a moment about the banishment experience she unpluged my vox, which i responded to with one short emote.
/me whines.
She mentioned how she hoped that it didn't earn me a violation (it didn't, it ussually takes the custodian two or three emotes to catch them or another communication violation first before it registers the emotes too, so generally a one word emote, once won't earn a violation...not allways but generally) and waved goodbye before going off to her event.
Now if I had been an operator, I would have...smirked...scolded the bane....then added a small violation to thier timer since the custodian didn't catch it.
but that's just me.
The rare occasions i take on a dominate mood i tend to dominate someone else how i imagine myself getting dominated sometimes.
Not that i'm asking anyone to change thier styles, just pointing out what i would do were situations reversed.

Update

Okies, sorry I havn't been keeping up on updates as much as i should be. RL is hell right now and I haven't really been in the storytelling frame of mind, right now i'm just loggin on and trying to do my time quietly and quickly so i can move on. Which involves alot of loggin on and standing in a spot while i do something else.
under 30 hours left.

update

Good news!
two updates in a row with no violations!
also i'm over halfway done with my time now, the "BEST" time is higher then the "TIME LEFT" which means i'm on the downhill now.

so frustrated

i'm just so angry right now i'm having trouble keeping myself composed. this is a half sl half rl blog post. I've been having a lot of stressful stuff go on for a while now, some family issues, some school issues, job searching and just general money woe's. To top it all off i've been dealing with my car too. Where i live we have yearly inspections your car has to pass before they'll renew your license plate, mine won't pass these. so far i've spent $500 in repairs that didn't fix anything just so they could tell me what was wrong with the car(and that even though they had told me twice what was wrong with it, it was for sure this time and would be nearly $1700 with what they'd already done to it.) why did i spend $500? because the state says that is the minimum you have to have spent on repairs before they'll give you a waiver for the inspections. So i've wasted $500 not repairing my car but just them telling me what they think it is that is causing the light to be on and not letting me pass inspection. I've spent the last two days getting the run around from the states office, and my car dealer with trying to get the paperwork i need to get a waiver for my inspection. All of this finally came to an end today, So i took off work early yet again (i've wasted 3 of my five vacation days dealing with this.) today to go get it taken care of, I come to find out that the only inspection place within 20 miles is closed on Wednesdays.
So now if i want my license plates i'll have to go into work yet again late tomorrow morning.

now onto SL
i haven't even reached my halfway point in banishment yet, i'm just so angry at everything i'm not sure if i even want to do it right now. i really miss being a part of conversations. some of the most fun i have in SL is just chatting with someone about the most inane things, like building or where to find good items, or just rp experiences. this morning i logged on and there was a small party of people at the place i normally stand around(which is usually empty which is why i first started coming there and then being there as a BANE), and it made me really sad i couldn't be part of the conversation.

i'm not sure if i'm going to keep posting as much as i have been, i'm really really really stressed out right now, i'm not sure if i even want to finish doing this or not. i've got the second "Memory file" written up mostly and saved as a draft, i just haven't had the energy to finish it, let alone plan where i'm going with the story.

i don't know...being banished isn't "HARD" it's just logging on to a video game (chat program really) and not talking to anyone....it does require a great amount of willpower though to go through. Its hard to log onto a "game" about interaction and just not interact with anyone for 72 hours (which was a mistake on my part. But i figured it like this.....my longest stay in Tesscatraz was 48 hours [the max you could do at once] and if i was being banished on parole violations the sentence should be as long if not longer then the offense i got paroled on. my desire for realism bites me in the ass again.) i just feel so empty right now i'm not sure if i have the willpower for it.

more updates

Weekly update today.
+1hr
So I've been debating something lately...Should i put the address for this blog on my profile in Sl.
on the one hand i like having people leave comments. On the other hand i'm not sure I want that many people reading this.
As it is now i know i have a few readers, and i often wonder how they find this place. Some i know i told the website to, others i think find it because i leave comments on another blog.
but if i put it on my profile then it opens up a whole new method of finding these writings and maybe leaving comments or whatever.

Now this is all based on the assumption that people read profiles, I personally devour profiles i enjoy reading everything someone was willing to put up and i often check every tab on a profile to see if they put something in it or not. It has been my experience that not everyone in SL is as thorough with profiles as I am.
So i say there is a 50% chance that if i did put it up on my profile i'd get new readers out of it.

More and more daily updates!

Okies, so last night i had a run in with some one who apparently didn't know what a BANE was, she chased me down and kept trying to tell me how I didn't have to do this and How I had a choice, the quote was "Running around gagged in latex is no way to live" I don't think she understood that I couldn't communicate back, I ran from her as much as i could, the zone has an odd amount of lag that keeps me from running for more then a few steps at a time (the first time i felt it happen i guessed it was an effect of my custodian because i was overdue for maintenance, but it does it every time i go there.) and she followed and kept trying to talk to me, finally i was given a contact violation, at that point i had enough and just TP'ed home to avoid any further violations.
she tried to add me to her friends list after that, i just denied it. I'm not sure how long it will be until i'm out and explain, maybe i'll see her someday again, she had the spot i was at in her profile under her picks as a favorite place (people really need to learn to read profiles better you can find out some of the most interesting things about people and places that way) maybe i'll stop by and look for her after/if i get out.
B-9651

i'm so lonely and bored.
i wonder what the penalties are for frivolously contacting my operator.
over 20 hours down only another 60 to go.

daily update

i fell asleep in my chair last night. I didn't mean to it was just a really long day and i dozed off. I just turned the computer off and went to bed when i woke up, i didn't check to see how long i was asleep for, guess i got a free hour off my sentence.
I try to not be logged on unless I'm at the computer. Sometimes I'll be reading while I'm sitting here. Sometimes working, other times working on the blog. but I'll always be at the computer i try to not log on then go do something else my time wears down.
I thought i had been so good all "week" without any violations. i did let me maintenance go for a while but i finally did that too.
then today while I was wandering around New DI i was trying to climb atop of prim alter/rock to get a screen shot of me sitting on top. My custodian knew i was trespassing and violated me quickly. My weekly report came in right after that, One more hour added, I was really hoping to see a clean one for once. maybe next time.

update

i got my second "weekly" update, only 2 hours this time, much better then last time.

-UPDATE-
Okies so if I'm going to be posting so much i think I'm just going to update some of the smaller posts instead of making a new one each time.

So this morning I logged on to find that Payne's Asylum was gone. Not that it's a big deal it's just weird. They had this nice little fountain and flower box in their courtyard that i often stood behind while watching the people gather in front of Kelley Technologies. The land is still labeled as "Payne Asylum" just the buildings aren't there anymore.
Guess I've got to find a new hiding spot.

post crazy

ok, so I'm close to passing up April for posts already, but i suppose that's because i have something going on right now. plus writing is a good stress relief for me.
last one for tonight though and maybe tomorrow too, i might put the pt. 2 up Sunday I'm not sure I'm still thinking of it in my head, how to take what's happened in the past few days of life in SL and translate it into a story.
So i wish that the RLV had the ability to block group chat as well as IM's my groups keep going off, at least the product support ones i belong to that are pretty spam heavy. i close the window quick and that helps but it's still annoying. it's like a taunt because it's the only type of IM you can hear.
I've got to be more careful with violations if i want to get out.
ok, now an OOC note. I was hoping i could talk my operator into passing on an OOC message. One of the other group operators we both know asked me if she could observe the processing that night, I said I didn't mind, then she bowed out saying she couldn't stay up that late and asked me if i would be kind enough to send her a log and gave me her email to send it too. I said sure but i didn't have logs turned on like i thought i did. Could you please let her know so she doesn't think I'm just ignoring her request please? Or if you happen to have a log and don't mind passing it on please?
That is if that's not abusing the system.
B9651

BANE Pt. 1 Processing

The following was an intercepted communication from Kelly Technologies Inc. Mainframe network:

File retrieved from Custodian B-9651 Memory Recording...000234132

-:Begin File:-
Today I turned myself in. I didn't make the final decision until yesterday. There were still several weeks until my deadline for going, but i had gotten drunk by myself that night and talked myself into it. I was up nearly all night with nerves, i think i might have still been a little buzzed when I went in. I picked out a little plaid dress to wear down to the lab, no point in dressing up it's not like it's court after all. I stopped outside before going in to collect myself and smoke a cig before i went inside, i doubt they would let me most buildings are nonsmoking nowadays anyway. Before I could even take them out a woman came out to greet me. She walked right over to me, they must have camera's or something. It's not like i would have been hard to spot with an ankle bracelet on. She was carrying a set of shackles with her, standard belt and cuffs, at least no ankle cuffs, probably because of all the stairs. She let me have my smoke before taking me inside. "Nasty Habit, Banishment will cure you of that too." she told me while she watched. It was just like going into jail, waist, wrists, hand on my elbow while she lead me inside, paper work paper work paper work. I was wrong it's worse then jail at least in jail they don't make you fill out so muc....
-:File Corrupted :-
-:System Restart:-
OH my god! I can't get up! T..this thing has me strapped in to tight, i..i can still hear the woman's voice. What's her name..i never asked...she just kept calling me Ms. Bao. I hate it when people use my last name, it just reminds me of how few of us there are left anymore.
"FUCK! what's that! NO! Don't shave my head!"
-:File Corrupted :-
-:System Restart:-
"NO! Get it off me! This isn't what i agreed too! This is worse then jail, I don't want it, please..."
She didn't listen, the hood was forced over my head, they had tied my arms again, i couldn't fight it anymore. Everything was dark, it hugged around my head to tightly...was this made for me? What did they do to me while I was out!?!?!
I saw the tub when i was brought into the room, it's black like oil, i can hear her talking about it now,
"I don't want to get in it, please don't make me..."
"Custodian, Punish..."
-:File Corrupted :-
-:System Restart:-
Oh god! It's everywhere, i can feel it squeezing me! I want out please! She won't stop talking, she won't stop talking, she won't stop calling me that number, I'd give anything if she just called me Ms. Bao one more time, I don't want this it isn't what i bargained for. I can't stop crying inside the hood. It isn't even like really crying, i could taste the latex like material in my mouth, feel it in my nose...i couldn't feel the tears on my skin, and my vision never got blurry, I'm not even really seeing anymore. i don't have eyes just this heavy ball head.
Once the door open i ran as fast as i could from the place, i had to escape that house of torture.
I stopped somewhere in the woods next to a tree, i don't know when i fell asleep i just know i cried myself there.
-: File End :-

frustrated

i did something dumb. I've had a really hard week in RL, i'm having a lot of problems with my car on top of a lot of other stuff that's been going on for a while that's been wearing at me.
So right after i got my first weekly report today, i was a little annoyed and logged off SL, then two minutes later got a phone call saying that my car couldn't get fixed today and they were gonna have to hold onto it until Monday because they don't do service on Saturdays.
i was a little mad, for a lot of reasons that i don't want to go into but they should have started this work yesterday so i had my car back today, instead they worked on something that wasn't the problem, and now i'm out a car all weekend.
so i managed to get back on SL after that trying to calm down some, and in my anger at my car, and a little at myself for getting so angry over it, i wracked up a large number of violations in a short bit. several for yelling at the top of my lungs (well typing out how mad i was.) and several for running.
so now i'm mad and i've added probably hours to my sentence.
i should really get around to writing the first part of my banishment story, but i'm really not in the right mind right now.
Promise i'll get it done before the weekend, without a car i won't have much else to do, and if I don't have it up here by Monday 5/5 then i give anyone reading this to bump me inworld for a contact violation as punishment
B-9651

musings

So i got over not being able to have an AO, mostly by cheating, i saw another bane with hers on and snapped some shots, i mean we all look alike so who's gonna know that the bane under a tree in my profile is bane N-whatshername and not B-9651.

A still haven't gotten my "weekly" report yet on violations. I'm really curious as to what causes a violation, would me trying to IM someone earn one? Someone sent me an IM yesterday that thankfull dosen't earn any
((And before anyone leaves a comment, I don't want to know the answer, i've tried very hard to not have people ruin it for me as to what and what is not a violation, and what the experience may be like))
UPDATE- I got my weekly report, +7hr, the past two days have just been whipped out.
i screamed.
it could be worse, the way everyone was making it sound for emoting violations i thought i'd get a whole day added or something.

OMG 3 in one day

so this is really just more stuff i forgot.
I've turned off avatar names so it's harder to identify the other BANES, i've got to keep reminding myself to not just hover my mouse over top of them and view their profiles. i do that a lot now viewing profiles is one of the few freedoms the custodian allows.
So i'm at Zhora right not, watching all the people outside play with vehicals wishing i could join in. I recognized on of the tanks someone pulled out it's the same one Cait drives, i bought an anti tank weapon i was going to surprise her with, wish i could have joined in the fun too.
I've had a really rough night/afternoon RL.
When I logged on for a bit after I got home, Wildefire was on, I wish i could have talked to Her, she's always good about calming me down and keeping me calmer.

just random bane thoughts
B-9651
((So I'm ULTRA dyslexic aparently because i've had my number wrong for a whole day. i looked on my collar. ooops.))

Stuff I forgot and day 1 pt 2

Ok, so two posts in one day, banishment must be good for my creativity. Which i think is true, I came up with more ideas the week I was locked in Ghrul's Federal then the few months/weeks prior. Anyway....
I forgot to mention this, but I am not the only Bao, contrary to popular belief, I finally found someone with the same last name as I, she was rezed just several days after myself, guess that makes me the older Sister. I didn't talk to her long, just saw the profile and said Hi to the only other Bao in SL.
Oh, also while I was waiting to be a BANE i wrote a small note card on some of the finer points of character development, just kind of a "How to for newbies" to making a character and background, i'd re-post it here but i don't have access to my inventory in SL to open it to copy and paste.
So today was my first day as a BANE, i wandered around the Desperation Island a lot, i hadn't done that much since it got moved to "New Desperation Island" normally i just head right out to the building area. There are some really neat bits of scenery out there. I wish my operator would have allowed me an AO, not that the cheap free one i use would do me much good but it'd be nice to sit for a bit when need be so that i could snap shots of myself to accompany the story.

I ran off 2 other banes today...i earned one a proximity violation (myself included) which i feel bad about but she should have backed off, the other girl knew what was up and retreated when i charged her. I spent the next 20 minutes walking a small circuit up and down the path i had claimed from them.
I've had my first maintenance, figures i'd get the LM for the busted station that Marine set out a LM for earlier today, thankfully I was already in Zhora so I just walked over to the one at Kelley Tech. Got a snapshot for my three PICKS i still have on my profile, now just need one of the labs and then something for my other one.
I've racked up quite a few violations, i haven't had a "weekly report" yet though so i'm not sure how long it's added, once i find out the ratio i'll decide if i should be more carefull or not. i have a feeling it's going to be bad.
B-9561 (I'm dyslexic and i always transpose the 1 and five when i try to write my own number.)

Post Bane OOC

Ok, so first things first.
I failed miserable at my attempted update schedule. Only 8 posts for April which is i think my lowest yet, and feb. i started late in the month!
So no goals for May.
Ok, now that that's out of the way. Guess what, I got banished! B-9561 so to keep in the spirit of this, i'm going to stop signing with bunnies for a bit and only sign with my number.
Ok, now last bit of business then onto the juicy stuff.... I've decided i'm going to keep two running blogs about my life as a bane, the IC one where i take a lot of dramatic liberties with the rp that went on and craft it into a story. Then also i'm going to have this one which i'll call BD or (bane daily) which is my OOC report of what's going on with me.
So i got processed, i won't go into detail here save to say it was by a Goddess of a woman (There i fulfilled my promise to only refer to you as such if i mentioned it in the blog.)) Who was very kind to set up an appointment with me and getting me processed after waiting most of the week.
well Sunday through Wednesday.
Anyway so i'm all sealed away, no contact for a bit, profile changed etc etc etc.
So despite my best efforts of trying to not read about the experience so to not ruin it for myself, i did know a little about the BANE program before going in, like how the no building thing was processed. Needless to say my first few hours were testing custodial violations, I thought for a bit maybe the building sensor was busted (I know how it works but won't spoil it for anyone who doesn't) I had heard that it'd been updated to recognize roads now so i thought maybe the update broke the whole system.
i'm sad/happy to report that is not the case and i finally got a violation for going into the buildings, lucky me.
Oh well i guess if i don't wrack up violations i won't have anything to make into a story when i write that half of this.
The bright side to this little thought of mine (which i now know to be wrong) was that it gave me the confidence to teleport somewhere.
I Teleported to my homepoint on Desperation Island, which i was a little scared to do at first because it was in the middle of the mall, but armed with my confidence that the item may have been broken and wouldn't report (It wasn't) i TP'ed out there and ran like hell into the grass. So now I have a little more scenery to look at, i'd like to swim to the other island DI North and South but i'm afraid to get kicked by the houses security orbs out there.
Also I'm curious about something, in essence the helmets work much like the other RR stuff, with plug-ins and everything, so do the custodians have the "Long Time" plug-in? if so i wonder if i could get Sabra hide my timer from my view, if i can see how long i have i'll just sit there and clock watch.
ok, that's it for now, i think my first IC post will be in a few days, it'll probably cover my processing and first few nights as a bane, i think they'll cover weeks to a month at a time IC in each "chapter" of the story.

B-9561

Pre-Bane

((This post is all IC, some of the events have happened in SL, others have not and have been added for dramatic licence.)
Fuck Fuck Fuck! It happened again. I've heard that jails are made up of almost exclusively repeat criminals and if you've been there once then the chances of you going back more then double.
It was the same thing that happened last time too, when they sent me back to Tess. Parole violations, and this isn't like that week i spent in Ghrul's federal either, there's no dismissing the charges here those asshole cops got me dead to rights.
I wasn't even doing anything! I was with a friend of mine, we'd been hanging out all night and she asked me to come with her while she picked up some 'Stuff'. She knew the type of life i've had and wanted someone who knew what was going on. I know i shouldn't have gone but she would have gone anyway even if i didn't. The cops spotted us coming up even before we made it to the house, to young blonde's in a car that didn't belong to the neighborhood any more then they did themselves.
We got stopped, searched..it took the officer all of about two minutes to find the guns trapped to my thigh and under my skirt. I didn't bother trying to resist, i've seen enough tv to know that that train of thought only ends bad for the runner. Handcuffs followed, car ride, processing, and because it was Friday i was sure to spend the weekend in jail.
I spent all of Saturday in dread, this was my third offense it was going to be a long long stay for sure, no plea bargain this time...or so i thought. Late on Saturday night i got transferred to a private cell. I was lead down there in full shackles and shoved inside much the same way. The surprising part though was someone was waiting for me in the cell. She said i could call her Mz. Bluezy but didn't tell me much else about herself. We spoke for a little bit, she asked me if i was afraid of going to jail. I answered truthfully and told her yes, spilling my whole story. I knew it was wrong for me to carry a gun since i was a felon but it just wasn't that easy. I don't live in the edge of society where a person can rely on the government for protection, a person has to protect themselves!....atleast that's what i've always told myself...maybe it was just delusional.
To her credit she listened to my story, never once stopping me until I finished. Once I was done she began to speak. She told me she worked a place where the files of all new prisoners crossed her desk. She was looking for certain types and when found she took opportunities to speak to these inmates. She told me she worked for a place called Kelley Ind. some scientific research company. They were looking for non-violent criminals (i didn't dissuade her from this belief, at least none of my crimes were violent.), people who faced real time. She offered me a chance, i wouldn't have to go to jail, all I had to do was join their research program. She didn't tell me much about it, but i didn't care. Anything was better then jail. I had heard a little about the BANE's before, just stuff on TV though I didn't live in a district where they were kept. She said everything would be taken care off, all I had to do was come Monday when i got before the judge plead guilty. They'd offer me a chance for the program and i was to take it, in exchange what would have been the remainder of most of my adult life in jail, to 72 weeks in one those fancy suits they made the prisoners wear.
She left me in the cell to consider my choices, i spent all day Sunday in solitary, it was OK though better there then in some cell, that worked out so well last time. When Monday came it took me all of two seconds to say "Guilty"
Because of the nature of my crimes, I was given time to turn myself into the program. The guards fitted me with an ankle bracelet and i was out by the time lunch rolled around.
That was three days ago.
I've managed to get all my affairs in order. Someone will watch my house while i'm gone. from what i understand i won't be back here for over a year. I won't be able to leave the limits of the district. It doesn't matter though, I can't go back to jail. It can't be to bad after all, at least I'll get to be outside, it'll be just like survival training again!
I took a trip into the city yesterday, i buried a stash of cash for myself along with a pack of rations, my little tool kit and map kit full of paper, stamps and a pen so i can still keep in contact. Hopefully they're still there when i go to get them, i buried them pretty deep and covered it with a rock so someone would have to really go looking for it to find it.
I'm going to turn myself over to the labs tomorrow, wish me luck i guess. Hope the whole thing doesn't hurt.

More prison stuff!/I forgot to update!

Ugh, so my goal for updates for April has fallen way short of it's goal, sorry but RL (that's real life, not restrained life) has been crazy lately.

So after my first night at Ghrul's the RP has all but died. So far I've been let out of my cell a few times but it's always disappointing. My first night out i got attacked by two friends of the girl who i "killed" (which I'm not sure if I made that clear from an OOC standpoint in the last post, i didn't kill this girl she decided I killed her and despite my saying that wasn't my plan OOC, I was forced to go with it as she just made a huge post about dieing, then suddenly a cop showed up, whom I later found out from another prisoner was that girls husband on his account. Can someone say setup?)
The first girl who attacked me was apparently German and while she spoke passable English apparently couldn't read it because she ignored every action I did and kept beating up on me for like 2 minutes until I said something OOC'ly about it then she just stopped, and a guard took me back to my cell.
Since then I've been called new meat by every girl in that place who thinks that they're the top dog. Instead of the guards telling me what i'm going to do, since i'm a prisoner and all and therefore shouldn't get the right to decided my schedule for myself, i'm constantly asked if I want out of my cell or whatnot...which is fine from an OOC standpoint and I'd even applaud it, but none of them do it from an OOC standpoint they just walk up and go "You want out Bao?" and if i don't answer yes they just walk off.
Either way my sentence ends tomorrow.
I had a lot of fun at first but it died out after the first night and I found myself just waiting to get out, which i guess is alot like real prison. The problem is every girl that gets herself arrested there is apparently there with the intent of being the "top dog" in the prison. I think most of them are alts too, i know my "room mate" was an alt because when she started to gloat about how much of a "noobie" I was for leaving my keys on my cuffs, and I warned her that next fight she wouldn't be able to just end it by grabbing my keys when i'm beating her up, she told me all about how her other character was a domme and this and that...anyway.
I think alot of the prisoners there are just alts, I saw one cell with a 45 day sentence on it, which to me just screams! alt. Unless you're cheating all the time who is going to take themselves out of a game for over a month and a half (I'm sure it was longer to start) unless they had another character to do things on. Plus after my experience with the husband and wife inmate and cop team I've become suspicious of the other staff as well.

I went to Ghurls because I saw it listed on a prisoner lounge board, and the "RP experience" there was listed as good...personally I'd give it a "fair" rating instead. then again though i've very picky and want as close to a real experience as possible in my rp's...the joy is in the details for me...
most people are content with /me puts on her corset.
i find it al ot more fun to be. /me slips into her corset, pulling the stiff material up to her breasts before reaching behind herself to begin cinching the laces.

Arrest at Ghrul's

((The following post is IC))
I fucking got busted again! Stupid parole violations. I got nabbed during a sale and arrested for trafficking in stolen goods. At least the didn't catch me at a sale i brought my guns to, i would have got nabbed for unlawful possession too.
I caught a break this time. I got sent to a medium security facility Ghruls Federal. Processing was pretty standard. I got stripped searched issued an uniform (ugly thing.) then a cell. I'm still awaiting full trial.
My first night in prison didn't go so well, after coming back from the yard i got introduced to my cell mate. It didn't go well. The bitch made some offhanded comment to me about my ass. I responded in kind, pointing my finger at her before she drew a shank on me. My combat training kicked in quickly (unlike the American army, the BLT which is at best a gorilla group of ex militants and other mercenaries, allows females in combat situation and even trains its female recruits alongside the males.) and i responded with equal force, knocking her knife hand away as i began a counter attack. I would have retained the upper hand in the situation had she not used the cuffs the police used on me to her advantage (she totally just grabbed the keys to my cuffs and gag, no IC post just snagged them then proceeded to start gloating about how much of a newb i was. Meanwhile i would have destroyed this girl in a fight but instead she cheated and stole my keys. I tried to warn her in IM that i would take revenge, to which she said that i'm an armature and tried to gloat some more. )) Even cuffed i put up a fight though and would have smashed her face in with my shoulder had she not ignored my fight and then "Kicked me around the cell like a soccer ball" She even put the knife to my neck!
It hadn't been the first time i've stared death in the face though, I've been on my own since i was old enough to read. I've lived enslaved to a house where death was a constant threat for the slaves, forced to help my owner as she slaughtered and experimented on the bodies of ones i had called sister. It wasn't the first time i've been faced with my own death and i wasn't afraid as i faced it this time as well. Though in the end common sense won over my pride, I relented to her demands to say i loved her. Shortly after she returned the keys to my cuffs. that was the last mistake she ever made...well that and giving me her shank.
the crazy bitch actually begged me to kill her, claiming she had many warrants on her head all ready. I hadn't planned on giving her the satisfaction. Taking careful aim to slice only her eye as i took the knife to her face, intending to maim her permanently for attacking me. My next strikes going to her hands with my knees. My intent to crush her fingers to prevent any further knifing attempts by the girl.
Somehow despite my not cutting any vital parts, and purposely doing much less damage then she did to me she somehow managed to die from these wounds.
Not that' i'm to remorseful over it, it was her or me after all and she did attack me first. I still have the mark on my neck from where she put the knife to it.
Needless to say it didn't take long for the guards to come over the commotion. currently i'm sitting in ISO while the police investigate. (on a side note the police officer that came to get me was pretty thorough in his RP of me getting arrested again)
So i might be in here for a while. (10 days original sentence)

Doll Key problems

Oh So this has been going on with me for a bit but I keep forgeting to mention it.
Oh and before I forget Marine has put together a full update for the RLV which is MUCH more stable and just the .exe file, not requiring the other folders anymore.
I needless to say, am overjoyed.
So A while back I tried to put together a "Doll" look for myself. One of the items i went out to purchase was a wind-up key for my back. A friend of mine (Tess Whitcroft of LSoK and Tesscatraz fame) told me about this neat key that worked as a plug-in for amethyst and dari-haus collars.
So I went looking and went to go purchase myself a key. It is supposed to work like this...You add the scripts to your collar, wear the key, reset both and then the key works like an AO requiring that you be "wound-up" to keep moving and if the key winds down the avatar wearing it is move locked until someone comes to wind them up again (just touch the key)
I never once got the item to work. When i first wore it, the scripts inside worked because they sent me an automatic update of the newest version of the key. Though the updated key and instructions for how to update my collar never once worked.
I sent a detailed notecard to the keys creator a few days after my purchase asking for help (i'm not sure what version of the collar i'm using but i'm pretty sure it's the most up to date one. On a side note I am not pleased with how Ame is handling updates now, the last time i tried to update my collar I had to contact her and send in my old ones to get new versions. )
I gave her as much detailed information as i could the collar I was using, and what i had tried to do to get it to work.
It's been over a month now and i've not heard anything back from the creator yet on my request.
It was only 300$L so no HUGE loss, but I am disapointed that I couldn't get it to work. So she's managed to earn my first review of 1 out of 5 bunneh's. For the sole fact that the item dosen't seem to work as intended and zero feedback from the creator/scriptor of the item. I may try to conctact her again since it's been some time.
I don't have the name of the creator handy but the key itself came from B&P Design I'm sure you can find them in search in SL if you're curious.
Oh wait i had a new format i had forgoten about

Item: Doll Key add-on for Amethyst collars.
Likes: The concept
Dislikes: Didn't work well, no creator support
Score: 1 out of 5 Bunneh's
Overall: Don't purchase.

SL Still brokered

So My goal for updates is well behind it's mark for this month.
Oh well, I haven't been playing as much SL because since the last update i'm SOOOOOOOO laggy that it hurts. Plus I can't get the RLV to work without crashing every two minutes. Hopefully the next update fixes that, it's just not as much fun locking my restraints for a bit if i know i can just take them off at any time.
I saw cait yesterday! She was only online for a few minutes, stealing wi-fi access from the ihop she said. That was a nice little surprise yesterday afternoon.
I know i keep promising RP stories but I'm not quite in the writing mood to put alot of that stuff down on paper (or down in electronic format as it were.)
So still next time i'll post a small recount of my RP self in SL...Cross my heart or hope to get gagged.
Bethany
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SL UPDATED!!

Ugh!
So today when I tried to log on, I got a message saying that I had to download the newest version of the client to log onto SL. Which is odd because I logged on once in the morning, then when I tried again in the afternoon it got the "Required update" message.
So that's poopy.
Hope I can get the RL viewer re-installed properly without using the windlite viewer.
More later!
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The only Bao

So I'm coming to the conclusion that I was maybe the only person in SL to pick the last name of Bao when it was available. This conclusion is based on the fact that I've only ever seen one or two other people with the same last name as myself. I've seen tons of Boa's, and even a few Yao's, but very very very few (almost none) other Bao's.
Ok so a real post.
I've had a lack of reviews lately because I haven't been shopping in SL in a while. If could use some new shirts for a few outfits so maybe that will change. Even so I've managed to come up with a little format i plan on using for future product reviews so that they are a little easier to find among my rambling.
In case you were wondering the format will go like this.
Item Description:
Things I liked:
Things I didn't Like:
Score and summary of why the item got that score:

I've got readers!
This is something that strikes me a little weird. I guess it's just that I don't think anyone would be interested in reading what I have to say, but I noticed my name is now listed on two separate peoples blogs as a "Blog i like to read." or "read regularly" or whatever. So thanks to those people who are interested enough to come check my ramblings regularly!

Ok so some Rp stuff:
SL is a little weird for me to RP in, in the past on other chat programs if I had an idea for a character I could just make a completely new profile to chat with that was modeled around the character concept. That doesn't work as well in SL because if you make tons of alts you have to buy things for those alts to make them look how you want to. Which if you've ever purchased items for yourself you'll know how hard this can be. A basic avatar look with a good skin/hair/clothes is at least 3000$L (sometimes you can achieve a look with just freebie stuff but most of the times the specific looks are ones that you have to buy parts for.)
So I've been having trouble coming up with new ideas that fit well with the story I already have for myself.
I realize there is no rule saying that all my different "aspects" have to fit with each other but if I'm going to be using my profile i'd like all the different aspects of that profile to lend to each other as much as possible.
Though this isn't always going to be possible, my "doll" look for instance can't fit in with the rest of "Bethany's" back story because it's a living doll, not a urchin bunneh girl turned to first a life of crime, then a quasi-military group, then back to a life of crime again.
So I'm having trouble getting everything to mesh together.
The other problem with SL is it's a fine line between RP place and just chat place.
while Bethany is me, "Bethany" is not...wrap your heads around that one.
I try to lend alot of my personality to the characters i make, because I think it helps to make them seem more real instead of just a made up set of values.
I've always used the IC(in character) and OOC (out of character) separation more as a way to talk about stuff that didn't pertain to the RP inside the RP instead of a way for "Me" to talk while my "character" is active. Otherwise I'm almost always talking while my "character" is acting.
I am my character and my character is me.
Confused? Good because I am to.
I'm not sure if there was really a point to this besides just filling up my blog to make my 20 post goal this month.
Next time i'll try to give a small bio for "Bethany the character" in SL.

Doubleing my posts!

OK, so my vow to post more frequently isn't working out.
So it's another month all ready.
The first month that I had this blog i did five posts, the second month it was 10. This month lets double it again and make it 20!
I don't think that's likely but I like having goals to try to strive for.
Real post later!

Stuff I plan to talk about

Ok so in an effort to make it easier on myself to cover the topics i planned on putting up here, because lets face it i get sidetracked alot, in no perticular order are:

The stores I've been looking at for clothes lately.
How i got to test a BANE helmet not on the market, and the girl who is making it.
My criminal RP experience (what landed me in tesscatraz)
Some of my RP experiences with Wildefire (feel better soon if You're reading this)
My thoughts on being a ponygirl in SL and why i don't find it as fun to RP by myself.
My updated "I want that!" list.

More Product Reviews!

So I'm not one for reading my own blog, and the time between posts makes it hard for me to remember what I've already written about and what I haven't yet.
I went shopping Friday! (or was it Thursday) and managed to get a bunch of stuff, but not the two things i was originally looking for. So first I wanted a little dress for my "doll" look that I'm still working on, and flipping back and forth between if i want it to be a latex doll look (using the scorpion products BANE hood to achieve a blank mannequin head look) or if i want to try to re-color the hood and just take a flesh colored mannequin look.
So I went out shopping for some dresses that i could wear over black latex and still have them "pop" something bright i guess. Also I had heard that Dark Eden was giving(selling cheaply) bunny ears for Easter so i went there to see if i could find them. So around 900L later i came out of DarkEden with a set of tattoos, a full set of skirts, and a bright pink jacket (I'm not partial to hot pink myself and like more muted tons of pink, but the jacket was in a vendor that was part of a fundraising effort for the American cancer society so I splurged the few extra liden and got it in hot pink, i think of it as a 'biker' jacket, something you'd see someone in the fast and the furious wear) Anyway, besides those items (which i all give a good 4 out of 5 bunnies to, i enjoy dark edens work a lot for clothes)
i also bought the "Restrained Freedom" arm binder, which i learned about through a group announcement when i signed on Friday. The arm binder was 600$L, and I'm rather happy with my purchase. The binder seemed to be sized for small avatars, and required very little altering from me to make it fit (just moving the "belly strap" out of my belly a bit, which turned out to be several indivual parts but if you know how to edit, it should be no problem, 30 seconds of work) which is allways a big plus in my book. Also it's scripted to be RLV compatible (what isn't nowadays?) and it's not only colorable, but you can change the texture of both the arm binder itself and the straps (currenly mine is in "red Velvet" colored green to match the evening dress i often wear for my "high class bondage" look. I really should start taking more pictures of myself to post to help illustrate the looks i'm talking about.)
and for all it's features it was under 1000$L
I think this is a good 4 out of 5 bunneh review for the item. The only reason I'm being hesitant about giving a 5 out of 5 is because I haven't had a great chance to test the AO in the binder yet.
(Also a little thanks to Shard of Shards Sadistic Creations for giving me the idea for that test, while talking about the arm binder she makes and sells [which i plan to purchase soon] she mentioned how strong the AO in it was and that it could even override sinewave dances, so that is a test i plan to incorporate into my future reviews.)

So this blog has turned into mostly product reviews, and I had promised at one point to talk about my RP experiences too. So I promise the next post will be a little more recounting of those.

Also this weekend I met someone i wasn't expecting to see. There is this certain dominate girl/boy who i met a long time ago, who came up with a rather annoying nickname of "Bethy Boobs."
So when I was at the LSoK the other day and someone said /me throws a rock at bethy boobs.
my jaw hit the floor. Apparently for reasons i didn't ask they had switched avatars and now resided under a different name. We spent a little time catching up until the sim we were in crashed and when i logged back on he/she wasn't there anymore.
It's weird how relationships on the Internet fluctuate, some days you'll lose friends for no apparently reason (cait) and then other days they'll pop up out of no where under a new identity being "Hey how have you been?"
Also I found out that Marine Kelly is onto the "testing" stage for her BANE suit, quite by accident. I was reading the blog of someone who left a comment on a friends blog (is that like a friend of a friend of a friend who heard something that one time?) about how she just got out of her test banishment, then in turn went to check on marine's blog (which i hadn't read in several weeks). Oh well, no point in crying over spilt milk but it would have been a fun experience i think.

Guess i'll jsut have to wait like the rest of the public, oh woe is me.
/sarcasm off

Seriously though I truly enjoy marines products and can't wait to see her version of the BANE suit, so far i know of One currently on the market (Scorpion Products) I tested one for a person I met in SL (I'll break my own rule and check to see if I've written about this yet, if not i'll make up a small report of my quarter day as a BANE) who since I've provided a report on my experiences to her, i found out she isn't planning on selling it but just making it for her own, and she's also planing on sending me an updated version based on my suggestions and her own observations in the testing.
Then by accident i found out that the people behind Restrained Freedom are making one as well (i was contacted by a "Custodian" asking if i had seen their bane, and when i TP'ed out to see what was going on, i was met by an old friend Green Geary, who then explained the suit/charging station to me and where she had gotten the test suit from)
so with Marine's BANE suit on the market that should make at least 3 varieties.
Ok I've really got to get offline and get productive with myself, more to come later as I get another burst of writers energy!
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A word about my reviews

Ok, so I think it needs to be stated, when I review an item for SL I'm doing it from my point of view.
I really enjoy being restrained, in more ways then one. And a lot of my reviews are based on how well an item can restrain me. So while some items may be very nicely made or scripted. If they can't work well to restrain me then I'm going to give it a lower score.
keep in mind the bunnies I'm handing out a bondage bunnies.
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VirToys Lovedoll Review

So on my little shopping spree lately I've been obsessed with dolls. Making a doll look for myself with a new dress and using the BANE helmet i had with a latex skin to create a mannequin like look, though I'm trying to figure out how to re-color the BANE helmet to flesh color, then i have some doll joint underwear layer clothes to wear.
Anyway in the process of looking up doll stuff i found this neat little "Lovedoll" outfit, from Virtoys (Black sin lovedoll AV) that's "RL Viewer compatible" (I know there is a TON of stuff is nowadays but it's little things like that, that will convince me i want something. I'm a sucker i know.) plus a "Sexbed" pussy for it as well, that was basically a complicated sex AO.
Included in the base set (just under 1000$L) was, lockable ear covers(guess they're handhold's) lockable opened mouth tunnel, lockable "Dripping Rubber Pussy" (i ended up buying the one with the AO in it for an additional 760$L) and locking expandable breasts.
One problem I had with the items is they were just lock on click by the first person who clicked them, which is fine if you get dressed by yourself or with an owner but can be a little dangerous around other people, or if you go out and forget to lock all the parts yourself.
The ears, pussy and mouth all locked easily.
The breasts were a different mater, These breasts as I understand were scripted and sculpted by another vendor and license to VirToys.While they are really neat little toys, and can expand to humongous size, drip milk, expand to push people away, and bounce, the breasts are a little problematic to lock. The security feature at one point locked both myself (the wearer) and the person who was assisting me (the key holder or owner, who was also allowed on the security list) it took me loggin out, back in on the regular viewer, detaching them, reattaching them, then loggin in on the RL viewer to get them to access properly again.
One other problem I seem to be having is the inability to reset the scripts in the sections, I'm not sure if this is an SL glitch or something built in to keep the wearer from just reseting and removing the owner, if it's the latter then that can be a little problematic if somoene just came up and took the keys(remember when i said earlier all a person needed to do was click on the items when they are unlocked) or if the scripts are malfunctioning.

I would have liked a package deal for the AV itself and the scripted sexbed pussy, and a little better scripting on the breasts to take care of the issues with security (I was told that they offten unlock when a person logs on and off but I never experienced this myself.)
Overall i can only give this little toy a rating of 2 out of 5 bunnies. Though if you're into being a sexdoll the addition of the rubber scripted pussy to you're already existing cat suit or latex skin could be a cheaper alternative.

A rare emotional post

Ok, I'm going to do something i told myself I wouldn't do. Make a emotional blog post about what's going on with my feelings. Not that I think it's wrong to express myself, i just don't feel that the right forum for this is the Internet. But since a lot of my emotional turmoil right now is from stuff happening online, this is the right spot for it at the moment.
Now i have a lot of things going on in RL right now as well that are probably adding to my emotional instability, not that I'm always stable when things are going right.

Yesterday I lost a friend in SL, she didn't die but she may as well have for all i know what is happening to her. A dear friend of mine (who may not have been as close a friend as I thought) left SL yesterday with no word to anyone. She evacuated her lot (She rented on Desperation Isle, who is owned by my family's Matriarch, who then asked me if i knew what was going on because she knew I was close to Cait.) and took down all her vendors.
Now I know she had been having a lot of work stuff going on lately and hadn't been on SL much the previous week, I had hoped when I first heard it s he was just selling off the stuff that was costing her money for little or no return. Then I looked at her profile which said "Gone for a while, maybe forever" or something close to that.
To say I was disappointed would be an understatement. Now I'm not so new online that I've never had to dealt with an online friend just disappearing before, it's sort of the nature of the beast on the Internet.
But I was really hurt that she didn't at least say bye. A mutual friend brought up that maybe she just wanted to avoid a big weepy goodbye, which I can understand. Though I thought that the two of us were close enough that she'd at least send off a message to let people know she's ok and not going to be around for a bit. All i would have liked was a small "Don't worry about me."
I don't know if it was a secret that I had a pretty big crush on Cait or not, but I did, still do i guess.
I was really down yesterday when i heard she was gone.
i guess the bright side is, when I'm down i usually go shopping, so yesterday ended up with me getting a new dress, some underwear (which doesn't show up on the skin i am using it for, if anyone who is reading this knows where to find a set of doll joints in a underwear layer that are more white then brown [the ones i found are brownish and look like they belong on a flesh colored doll, I'm using a black latex skin and want something that shows up on that.] then please let me know in game! ) and will probably result in more shopping today.
I miss you already Cait.

Acidental bane

Ok, so this is a placeholder, in an earlier post i gave a tiny review of this BANE helmet i bought, I've since done more testing on it and want to re-do the review with explications for why i am scoring as i am.
EDIT:
Ok, so here are my "complaints" so far about the Scorpion Products BANE suit/helemt.
The menu is a little unwieldy, it takes a lot of work to pick through it to see what all does what.
I'd like a little better documentation on the notecard for what exactly each feature/button does. Some buttons don't give a reply back when they're clicked.
I'd like a little on screen confirmation when you turn a feature on and off, for the helmet owner at least if not for the wearer.
They have a "Mantra" feature that is a phrase that must be typed at various intervals, that seems a little glitchy. Once i logged in with timer for my mantra running down (it does give you on screen messages for that to let you know how long you have to type it) but it didn't tell me what the phrase to say was, so i was penalized with no way to stop it. Also I've had it give me a nullvalue before for a mantra, which means it didn't give me anything to say but still said i had to say something, needless to say that equaled a violation and penalty too.

So I'm taking my original review of 3 out of 5 bunnies down to 2 out of 5 bunnies.
(EDIT: So after further testing I discovered that the problems i was having with the nullvalue mantra's was because of my own mistake of editing the notecard with the sayings but not updating the mantra control in the menu. Though I'm still standing by my lower score because of how complicated of an item it is, with little documentation on it to tell an inexperienced (or even advanced) user how the item interacts with the RL viewer.)
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Shopaholic?

Ok so my shopping habit reared it's ugly head yesterday.
So with the purchase of a BANE helmet i wanted a nice latex skin to wear with it, something shiny(the one that came with it was rather flat). So i went shopping last night.
Originally i purchased the tintable latex skin from KCreations (who is ran by a good acquittance of mine Kat Festiov[i hope i spelled your name right Kat]who was the first Latex Doll i ever met and the person who sort of inspired me to go and join them myself.[if memory serves me right she is also the other half of the duo with Caitlyn who first accused me of being a ninja])
Which is a rather nice skin, but it doesn't quite work as advertised. Kat's skin is mostly just the shiny latex texture, then by using the built in features of SL to alter the color of your skin you can tint it to the shade of latex that you want. Though because SL doesn't all ways work as advertised, i was unable to shade the skin to a true black color, the closest being a reddish/brownish black.
But in the process of trying to get it as black as i wanted i found some other nice colors for other outfits.
So all in all I'd give the Tintable Latex skin from Kcreations a 4 out of 5 bunneh rating, because it was affordable (500$L for two versions of the skin, plain and "ribbed" latex) and rather easy to adjust. If i could get the exact color i wanted out of it I'd give it a full 5/5 rating.
So after that, I went shopping again and ended up settling on a skin from the vendor who's name i can't remember right now (The vendor i was talking about is Kayliwulf Kingdom, and despite my complaints about pricing they do make some of the very best looking latex outfits.) , i ended up getting a very shiny black latex skin for just under 1000$L, which is more then I wanted to spend. Now I was much happier with the coloring and shininess of this skin, but 1000$L was a little more then I wanted to spend for basically a all black skin with a shine texture added to the top of it. Skins in SL tend to range from 1000$L to 2000$L so it was about average price for a skin, but those skins tend to be more detailed and have makeup designs.
Also it came with a pair of "Latex nipples" which is a nice touch because lets face it if i was in a full body latex catsuit my nipple would be really hard and poking at the rubber. But in order for them to be positioned right you have to use the shape provided with the skin, which made me one of those SL giants i dislike so much (6' tall i checked it with a height meter)
So all in all I only give this skin 3 out of 5 bunneh's. Because added extras require shape altering if you wish to use them, (either using their new shape or moving them to match your own shape) and because it was a little more pricey then I'd like for a latex skin(around 100-200$L decrease in price would put it around what it is worth in my opinion)
So for my BANE suit I've spent just over 2000$L for what was originally a 500$L purchase, i may just have a shopping problem.
Not that it's going to break my bank, that 2000$L is around $7.00 US currency, which just means that I won't stop for a sandwich and soup on the way home tonight and eat out of the fridge, not really a big deal but If i end up doing this type of thing two or three times a week (which I've been known to do sometimes) it can add up pretty quickly.
At least if i become a BANE i won't be able to spend myself into the poorhouse anymore!
Gotta find the bright side in everything!
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Product testing by Bethany

So, as I've mentioned before I'm something of an obsessive shopper. If i see something i like i just HAVE TO get a copy for myself. Clothes, Toys, it doesn't matter if it catches my interest i want one of my own.

This isn't all ways the best thing for me to do though, sometimes it can lead to problems. Financial problems to name just one (something I've had to deal with in RL too sometimes i get the itch and spend just a tiny bit above my means, a habit I've taken into SL with me too.)



So SL is a land of trends, one of the newest trends is the BANE. I've mentioned it before, interaction with a BANE is what urged me to make this blog (i needed an account to leave a message on her blog with my well wishes, and I don't like leaving things empty) , and it's something I'm mildly interested in.

Yesterday i saw a BANE for the first time with a "produced" suit. i.e. one that wasn't pieced together from other products but was a fully functional BANE suit(well really functioning BANE helmet as the "suit" is just a black latex skin, then some blank eyes to mimic the eyes.)

So I asked her where she found it (apparently hers wasn't active yet because she was talking in public chat, explaining the suit to someone else, which is what drew my attention to her in the first place) and got a Landmark from her for the store.

The "Suit" cost 500$L which isn't to bad for a bondage toy. It's not a great price but I've seen some heavily scripted stuff much more expensive.

After getting the new toy and going to the Desperation Isle building area (if you've never been you should really check out Desperation Isle, 1. it's owned by my former Mistress, and current Matriarch of our family. 2. The scenery is really nice if you just fly around to explore) and unpacked it then began going through the menu on the helmet to see what all it can do.

The thing did come with a note card but sometimes playing with the menus is better then reading the instructions, other times it's not.

I accidentally locked myself in the helmet, apparently once it's locked only someone else can unlock it, my attempts just ended up with my HUD going crazy as the helmet reported all my behavior violations..well to myself as i was the key holder.

In short I'd give it a fair review, though the menus were a little hard to navigate and I would have liked a confirmation message when i turned features on and off so i could better keep track of what restrictions were on and off.

3 out of 5 bunnies for my final review i would guess.

The helmet was purchased from "Scorpion Products" I'm sure you can find them in the search feature if you're interested.



I think if I was going to be a "permanent BANE" or at least a long term on I'd rather wait and see what Marine is doing with her suit, i like the RR script design and I'm curious to see what she's doing with the idea.

Plus currently i have no custodian to monitor my banishment and while i do have fun locking myself up a lot of times in SL, voluntary banishment would get boring very quickly i think. The RP around the banishment is half the fun.



I did take a picture of myself in the BANE helmet and skin, I also have on a Corset from Trilo-wear(My FAVORITE corset maker, go give her bussiness!) because i liked the look a little better then just the bare skin itself.

I had to log in using the regular SL viewer thismroning in order to take the helmet and HUD for it off, in the future any product testing I do, I plan to have an "assistant" there so i don't accidently banish myself again, or something worse.
Then again knowing my friends It's just as likely that I'd end up locked in the product anyway instead of them helping me out when i lock myself up.

So it's been almost a week since the last post, I'll try to not make it so long in between each but i can't make any promises. I spent a large portion of the week gagged. Harshly, due mostly to my own mistake. At one point I had the autolock feature on my gag set to go off with the rest of my cuffs, then later decided to change that. So i had to reset the scripts in the gag to turn the autolock off. because after it's running that is about the only way to stop it besides just waiting it out. So when I reset the gag it reset all the features too, which means when a friend did grab my keys and lock the gag i was fully restricted.
no emotes longer then 15 letters or I'd be labeled as a "cheater" no IM's to anyone even the keyholder and a hidden timer so i didn't know how long it was going to last.
When i finally got the gag off (i think it was unlocked for a while without me noticing, i never saw the message saying it was unlocked but i had the keys at one point so i must have missed it somewhere.) it was 20 hours locked (which is time spent online not real time) when i noticed and unlocked it fully.
Though i did cheat at one point and used an attachment to keep me active all night and not be disconnected in the hopes it would unlock while i was sleeping.
I don't mind being gagged for that long, i find it fun to try to emote what I'm saying without talking it out loud. Having to come up with different actions to express myself but i couldn't stand not being able to say anything more then
/me nods
/me squeaks
/me eeps
/me shakes head

Also this week i got my new guns that were sized for realistic avatars, plus a latex catsuit in camouflage to match. I was invited to a group called the "Fetish Ronin's" and put together an outfit for that(seen above)